Dear Diary,
I'm a bit worried now. I feel almost dependent on talking to him. I sound like a love-sick teenager, even though I, 1. don't believe in love, 2. don't believe in happy endings (especially for myself), and 3. know he doesn't like me. It's just I have been talking to him a lot, maybe more than I should.
I haven't had my usual downfall where I have crash and burn, and have that horrible feeling and just can't even bother to fake a smile since that day, so right now I'm worried that when the time comes I might do something drastic.
It's actually kinda weird I guess, I was used to liking someone that barely even payed attention to me, that now, I kind of forgot how to respond.
Anyways, I put my hair down again. I never told Sarah what he told me, mainly because I don't believe it. I don't think I'll be talking to him as much anymore either, after our talk yesterday, when we ran out of things to talk about, I doubt he'll talk to me again.
Well actually, maybe he will. My thoughts here are contradicting each other, but today I had a real conversation with him during school, where we actually TALKED, like not just messaging or something. I was pretty surprised, since we're both relativly shy. Well him more than me, maybe it was because I didn't have anyone from the popular group around me like I normally do so he talked to me.
My thoughts are getting jumbled, maybe I should stop thinking so much.
~J
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Teen FictionDiary from a girl with more problems then she lets the world see. She may be popular, but it's not like it matters when her world feels like it's about to come crashing down. She may not believe in love, but it's not like that'll stop her from feeli...
