Dear Diary

10/05/13

Dear Diary,

I finally hung out with Dianne today, and I came to the conclusion that I despise cheaters. Anyone who cheats is automatically on my hate list. Cheaters prove my point that love doesn't exist except in fairy tales.

Back to Dianne, the asshole she's been dating cheated on her. At the beginning of their relationship, nobody thought they would last more than a year. Everyone thought that she would get bored of him and dump him for another guy. They were all wrong, he was the one to ruin the 2 whole years they had together. They did, however, last longer than everyone expected, which made me actually think that maybe, just maybe, love did exist. That spark of hope was put out by the truth of reality. She loved him, and he threw it away. TWO years together, and he cheats. I just don't understand it.

I had always thought of Dianne as a role model, and to see her break, it made me want nothing more than to hurt the person that made her cry. She had always been the one to cheer me up, and I feel bad that I couldn't do the same for her. I couldn't help but tear up when she told me about it. I felt her pain as she spoke. I heard her voice break and could see the tears threatening to spill. All before she built up a wall so keep from seeing how much it hurt her, but it was too late, I saw her break, I witnessed the person I've never seen let anything get to her, finally break, and it hurt me like hell.

I always thought of her as a flower because of her looks, but now I feel as I can classify her as a rose, beautiful but has thorns to protect itself.

Back to my rant on cheaters. WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CHEAT? I just don't understand. Why cheat when you have a loyal girlfriend for some slut? Why don't you just break up with her instead of making her lose her trust in you? Because now, she'll never be able to have as much trust in a relationship as she had at the beginning of yours. Do you feel happy with yourself? You just made a girl feel insecure and not worth a faithful relationship.

I do not believe in love, and I never have, but I actually thought Dianne would end up with him. I can't write about this anymore without wanting to break something.

-J