Some people feel the rain. Some just gets wet.
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SASURA
"Sasura! Do you have any plans from getting up?" I heard my mother talking.
The demons are calling like sirens in the night. Like, literally. I didn't get much sleep last night. I don't know why. I guess because I did most of my thinking last night.
"What time is it?" I asked as I scratched my eye while yawning.
"11am, Sasura. It's almost time for lunch."
"Oh.. Then, good morning, Ma!" I greeted.
She just smiled and told me to eat brunch already. As soon as I finished eating I took a bath and get dressed. I could wear t-shirts again because my scars are not that visible anymore. Because Arika's having fun playing with my hair.
"Where are you going?" My father asked looking at me from head to toe.
"Just in the nearby beach."
"Are you going to bring your guitar?" Mom asked
"Ma, you know I don't play with that anymore." I retorted.
"Just be careful, okay?" My father said as he kissed my forehead.
I just nodded and rode my bicycle. It's 20 minutes away from here. I couldn't help but to think again. What could've happen if I didn't leave. Would we still be happy? Would everything remain the same? Would we still bond? Or would everything fade as well?
*BEEP*
I stopped pedaling and just stayed there, frozen. My heart is beating fast. I can't breathe well. I felt numb. I couldn't move. I bowed down, holding my chest.
"Miss! Are you okay?" I'm not okay but it's okay.
I looked up to him and my heart started beating even faster. My heart is barely beating at this point. Could it be? Is it really him? H-How...?
"S-Sasura?" He shockingly said.
I got back to my senses and rode my bicycle again and started pedaling fast. Even faster than ever. I finally reached the beach. I need to loosen up. Or this could be the death of me. I couldn't hold it any longer so I started running near the shore.
"AAHHH!! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU FOR LEAVING ME! YOU SAID YOU WOULDN'T... YOU SAID YOU'LL STAY BY MY SIDE!" I screamed as my voice became softer and softer. The calming feeling of screaming until you're hoarse and your throat feels like it's on fire.
Why? Isn't the pain enough? Why do I have to feel this kind of pain everyday? Why couldn't I just die already? I feel like I'm useless anyways.
"You only ever promised me one thing and that was that you would never leave. Well standing here alone now I understand why you never made any other promises." I said as I fight the tears that wanted to come out of my eyes.
"Don't you dare." I whispered but the first tear slowly rolled down my cheek in spite of my words and was soon followed by a thousand more.
Why did everything had to be like this? Back then I was a varsity. Our group was very famous. We called ourselves the 'Power 5'. Well that was what they called us so we just went on with the flow. Our group was consisted of three girls and two boys.
Shinan Obin Darato and Inoji Samaru Miruka were the boys. While Rochi Gamaari Maruji, Tsuya Chirama Azuya and me were the girls. We were super famous in our university (And other schools) because of our skills.
