It's the thing we love that destroys us
- President Snow
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KAI
"Mom, I'm home."
"Oh? What happened to you?"
"Nothing. I'll be up in my room."
I laid down my bed and stared blankly in the ceiling. Why is she avoiding me? Did I do something wrong? I just embarrassed myself in front of my classmates. Why would she choose Vash over me? I mean, she knows me already. I think.
What am I feeling anyways? Why do I get upset for her not choosing me? It's not like it's a big deal anyways. Who cares if she chose Vash instead of me?
You do, idiot. My inner voice said.
The first time I saw her, the day she asked me where our room was, I noticed right away her eyes. Ma'am Jiama was right about her eyes. It was all cold but fierce. You could see flames overflowing. But when I saw her cry...
I don't know, but, my heart... It softened. It pushed me to go near her and hug her. I felt like I needed to comfort her, to look after her. And the moment I knew she was being bullied? I got furious. I don't even know why.
And Arika? She's just an over-obsessing fan of mine. I was shocked when she called me 'babe' when I was with Sasura. I wanted to think that she got jealous then I remember, she doesn't give a damn. And to think she's being bullied be whenever she enters the room it seems like she's fine.
And then I thought, if she's fine being bullied, what more if she'll see me with Arika and call me babe? She won't care. So why am I reacting like this? She's just impossible. Really.
But then I saw how fragile she was. Behind that mask of hers. How her eyes protect her. And how good she hides her feelings. How can she be so strong? Just a while ago, I saw her. In the beach. Screaming. Crying.
I saw the pain in her eyes. I saw it all because I was also there, hiding. I was feeling the breeze when I heard her so I hid myself in a tree and just looked at her. Even though I don't know why she's hurting, it feels like I'm feeling the same pain as she is.
Just when I was about to come to her, Vash appeared. I started moving away as I saw that. Maybe Vash is just what she needed, not me. But I promise, I'll look after her. And I'll make sure I'll be the one wiping her tears when the day comes.
But for now, I'll just be watching from afar.
SASURA
Well, it's not that bad. It needs a bit more editing, but all in all it looks good. I was just watching the film me and Vash did. We still need to film some more but for now we need to rest.
"I thought Kai was your only friend?" My mother asked me. More like teasing.
"I never said he's my friend. He's just a schoolmate. Nothing more." I said just looking at my camera.
"I feel like he's a nice boy. Why not befriend him?"
He's not nice. He's with Arika. They're together. They both hate me.
"I have no time for that." I said as I stood up and placed the camera in my study table.
"I'll take a walk outside." But even before she could speak I went out already.
It's freezing cold outside but the cold never bothered me anyway. Ewan ko ba kung bakit nababad mood ako ngayon. Ayaw ko makipagusap kahit kanino. Naiinis lang ako lalo. Gusto ko mapag-isa.
