I am my problem, but also my solution.
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SASURA
It's been a month since we've been working, and tomorrow will be the launching of the magazine. They've really became a hit. And I'm very proud of their success. Would they be this successful if I was still here?
"Are you ready for tomorrow?" Kai suddenly said.
"Yes, of course." I said out minded.
"Is there something wrong?" He asked and sat beside me.
"It's a drag. But, uhm, I don't want to leave this place yet."
"Why?"
I thought my only reason for me not wanting to leave this place is because of my sickness. But I guess not. Even though I talked to them less, acted I didn't care about anything, I still want to be with them. I want to say sorry for everything.
I want to have my peace of mind and maybe...maybe I can leave.
"I still have an unfinished business here. So, would it be okay if you go on ahead the day after tomorrow?" I asked shyly.
"No."
I suddenly looked at him. His voice was stern. He can't stay. It would ruin my plans. Everything.
"Why?"
He stood up and smiled at me, "I also have my unfinished business here. What I'm saying is, we'll go home together, okay?" He said as he patted my head.
What is his unfinished business?
KAI
Kai, think! How would you tell her the truth?! You're obviously running out of time! She'll get mad for sure if she finds out. But the heck with that! She'll kill me if I lie.
What if I tell her tomorrow? Wait, I still have to talk to Tsuya and the others. Damn it!
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"So, why'd you call us?"
"I have to tell you something very important."
Rochi smiled at me, "Go ahead."
This is very nerve wrecking! Would they even believe me? Would they get mad? What if this doesn't turn out good? Should I back out then? Aish!
"I don't even know if you'll believe me. But I just really want you guys to know."
"What is it? Do we really need to know this?" Shinan asked.
"You have the right to know." I breathed out.
They all gave me a puzzled look. Tsuya gave me a signal to continue what I was saying.
"I'm... I'm Inoji."
They stayed quiet for a good minute and so and started laughing. What the?
"What? What's so funny?!"
"Come on, Kai. Stop putting our hopes up." Rochi said while wiping off a shed of tear from her eye while faking a laugh.
"We know he's already dead." Tsuya said with a small smile from her lips.
"What kind of joke is this, Kai? Did you let us go here for just that?" Shinan said with a hint of annoyance in his voice.
"I'm not joking okay! I'm Inoji! I didn't die. They faked my death. They hid the truth from me. I wouldn't even know if I didn't see some photos."
"T-they faked your death?"
I just nodded at them and their reactions are priceless. They let their back rest on the chair while thinking, I guess.
"Oh my god, how do I react? Does Sasura know already? What did she say?" Rochi asked.
I just bowed my head as a sign of 'no'. Shinan moved his face closer to me and said, "Are you really Inoji?"
"I am. Ask questions if you want."
"What's my favorite color?" Rochi asked.
"Orange. Not bright orange. Like the sunset orange."
"Oh my gosh he's right."
"Come on, Rochi. Ask a difficult question." Shinan retorted.
"Okay, fine." Rochi said and rolled her eyes, "What was our group called?"
"Power 5. Right?" I said with a smile.
"Still not difficult enough." Damn, what is wrong with Shinan?
"Come on, Shinan! We know it's Inoji. I believe him."
"It's just that... wow, this is unbelievable!" He said and placed both his hands in his head.
I placed my hand on his shoulder, "I know you miss me." I said with a grin.
"Damn you." He said and hugged me. I smiled widely and hugged him back.
I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling right now. I'm so happy. Finally I get to hug the people who was missing from me all this time. All the pain, longings, sadness. They were worth it. I can finally be with the people I love. And I hope nothing ruins this happiness.
"But can I ask you guys a favor?" I asked them.
"Sure, just say it." Tsuya said with a wink.
"Could you help me tell Sasura all about this? I don't know how to tell her. She'll get hurt and mad. I hid this from her. And I think I can't hide this from her this long. I want her to know that I'm fine and that..."
"And what?"
"...I love her."
SASURA
(Next day)
Today's the launching of the magazine. I'm sooo nervous right now. I mean, there would be cameras, a lot of people, paparazzi. And I'm also planning on telling Kai about my sickness. It's not that I want him to know, I just need help. So badly.
And a month passed already, it means I only have 1 or 2 months to fix everything. I want to spend my time with Kai. Of course, my family too. And my friends.
"You do know you've been standing in front of the closet for a good 10 minutes now, right?" Someone said behind me.
And when I turned around, I saw Kai standing while smiling with his arms crossed while looking at me.
"I just don't know what to wear for later." I lied.
"Hmm, what about I take you out for shopping today?" He said acting as if he was thinking.
"What?" I laughingly asked.
"I'm serious." He chuckled.
"You know what, I could just wear a simple dress. You don't have to buy me some." I smiled.
"But I want to. And also, remember the theme?" Oh yeah! It's like a casual party. Really glamorous people would also be there.
He placed my towel in my shoulder and said, "Go take your bath. So we can have lots of time." He smiled and was about to go back to the bad when I held his hand.
"Hey."
"Yeah?"
"You know I love you, right?"
He smiled widely, "Don't worry. This guy knows and he loves you too. You also know, right?"
"Very much." I almost whispered.
He patted my head and said, "Scoot. Scoot already." He chuckled.
I just smiled and went in the bathroom. I turned on the shower and just stood there. My tears slowly fell from my eyes. I just wish I could spend more time with him. I wish I could be by his side longer.
You know, I'm sorry.
