You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one.
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ROCHI
I'm so nervous. I hope Sasura won't get mad at Inoji. I hope when they get back everything's already fine. Everything would go back the way they were. I really hope so.
We're currently at Shinan's studio waiting for a call from either the two of them and say that everything's been settled.
"How do you think it went?" Tsuya nervously asked.
"Let's pray that it went okay." Shinan said.
"What if she gets mad and leave again? What if she leaves us again? What if she never comes back? What if---" I was cut offed when Shinan placed his hand on my shoulders.
"She won't. I know she won't." He said.
"How'd you say so?" Tsuya asked.
"Of course, she's our friend." Shinan chuckled.
It somehow calmed me. Shinan's right. She's our friend. No matter what happens we always got her back. Always.
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"I'm Inoji."
"I'm dying."
They were both startled with what they both said. They didn't know how to react. It's like their world just stopped. They just stared at each other not knowing what to say. They were literally not expecting that.
"You--you're dying?" Inoji stuttered.
Sasura couldn't say a word. She just stared at him. 'Is he really Inoji? How did this happen? He's dead!' she thought.
"You're joking right?" Inoji said and stepped closer to her but Sasura moved back.
"How did you even know about Inoji, Kai?" She retorted.
"Because I am Inoji."
"No.. He's---Inoji's dead! Do you really think this is funny? Because it's not, okay?!"
"Sasura, I really am Inoji. For the past few years I thought I was 'Kai', but no, I am Inoji. My mother kept this from me for like, 2 years! When she told me everything, I rushed to go see you. But it's like the world is just against me. I saw how happy you were with Vash and I just couldn't take that happiness away from you." Inoji said now crying.
Sasura started crying. He's big brother is alive. And she doesn't know what to say. Why now? Why when it's already her turn to be gone.
"Is it really you?" Sasura cried, "I missed you so much. I'm sorry." Sasura hugged him really tight and so did he.
They soon parted from their hug. Sasura looked at him smiling. She's happy he's alive. But it hurts her so bad that she has to leave him again.
"I'm happy you're here." Sasura said with a smile.
"I'm sorry for hiding this from you for this long. I was so scared. I was so scared that you'll leave me again."
Sasura looked at him with saddened eyes. She told him didn't she? She is dying. Her time is running. She wouldn't want to leave him without saying a proper goodbye.
"You know I love you, right?" Sasura said with a fake smile.
Inoji didn't want to believe her. Why now when everything is so close to being perfect? Why now when he's about to confess his love for her? Why now?
"You know I do too, right?"
She nodded with tears slowly flowing down her cheeks. She never really liked goodbyes. But here she is now, saying to that one person that she has to leave.
"Your sister... what was she like?" She asked.
"Actually, my 'sister' isn't really alive." Sasura furrowed her eyebrows, "I mean, she appears in my dreams as my sister. When I asked my mom about it she said I didn't have any sibling so it was kind of creepy for me."
"But it was like I knew that girl from my dreams. Now that I think about it, it's like she's... you." He said starting to slowly realize what's happening.
"No... You can't. It's not true, right?"
"I am dying, Inoji. Remember the day I told you I was going to visit my aunt? I went to the hospital. And no, the doctor was not my aunt." She chuckled.
Inoji can't understand why she still has the energy to laugh. She's dying. Why is she okay with that? Death is permanent! It won't bring her back.
"And guess what? My heart and brain is already failing. The first time I saw you, I thought I knew those eyes. But I shrugged it off. I can't remember your face clearly. I can't remember you clearly. I didn't recognize you."
"W-why is that?" Inoji said close to tears.
"I have selective amnesia, Inoji. I chose to forget you, but not what happened. All that's left of me was sadness and pain. I couldn't die for you. Instead I lived through the misery life has to give me, all for you. I always cried myself to sleep knowing you're already gone."
"Don't you realize you've come this far to give up?"
"I do. But there's always that finish line, Inoji. I'm tired." She said with a smile.
"You can't. I'm already here. I'll be with you. Just don't leave." He said already crying.
Sasura cupped his face and wiped his tears and looked him in the eye, "I love you but I'm sorry."
"I love you, Sasura." Inoji said hugging her tight not wanting to let her go.
"Goodbye, Inoji" Sasura said as she started walking away.
I love you... but I'm tired.
