Gently into the good night

chapter 30- Love me again

"WOW look who finally arrived" Naomi says pulling me into a hug. She shows me all the food and the drinks and introduces me to her friends and family. I help myself with a drink while I talk to her cousins. I find myself rambling on about the most random things in the universe.

Then I excuse myself to get another drink. I pour myself a glass of wine and walk upstairs where there is no one. I stand in the balcony feeling the cold breeze against my face. It's freezing but being able to think in solitude feels good. The noise and the room full of people consumed in different activities make me feel claustrophobic.

"Hey" I hear a voice behind me. I turn back revealing an unfamiliar face.

"Hey? Do I know you?" I ask squeezing my eyes trying to figure out this face more distinctly.

"Let me introduce myself. I am Collin McCarthy. I used to study with Naomi in university. We were class mates" he says

"Oh" I say coming to a sudden realisation. "Nice to meet you" I say politely.

"You're a very beautiful young lady, I saw you across the room and I guess I just had to talk" he says with a little laugh, I join in.

"Why stand in the cold? Let's into one of the rooms" he says expecting an answer.

"Oh I-" I begin to say but stop. I nod and follow him inside. He takes me to a bed at the end of the house. He sits next to me in the bed leaving no space between us. The closeness makes me feel uncomfortable. "I didn't quite catch your name" he says

"Oh, I am Amelia"

"Oh okay" he says suddenly realising something " You and Chris.." he says and stops.

"We've been on our separate ways for a while" I say with a small sigh.

"Well I know these men. They just leave behind everything for a little fame. I've been associated with this industry for a while. I am a photographer." He says with a small laugh.

We talk for a little longer. I don't feel too comfortable with him but its okay, He occasionally tries to touch my hand and I swiftly remove it.

"Your lips are so kissable" he says glancing at my lips and looking back into my eyes.

"Wha-" I say and I feel warmth on my lips. I see him press his lips on mine. The feeling of disgust fills me and I hate myself for not being able to realise what was going on. I am a little tipsy and my muscles don't possess as much strength as much they used to when I am sober. I use all my force and push him away.

"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?" I yell into his face. He smirks.

I exactly know where this is going and I quickly jolt up. Trusting my wobbly legs I walk to the door. I turn the knob. And as I am leaving he pulls my hand "There is no better way to get over something than having a little pleasure filled night"

"Get off me you creep" I say with all my might

I gasp trying to fight. My hands are so week and my body is so intoxicated. I can't find my strength. The alcohol has consumed all my wisdom and power. I feel helpless but there is no way I am going to let anything happen to me. With one swift movement I punch him in the stomach his makes him lose his grip on me. It's not strong enough to make him groan in pain.

I run to the door making my way out. I escape from my room and make my way to the party and as I see Naomi I fall into her arms. Naomi senses my panic and her smile quickly disappears.

"Collin tried to.." I say gasping.

"Collin did what? What did he do?" she asks me taking me to a couch "Get water" she instructs someone "Amelia, it's okay breathe. You are safe. Did he try to..?" her words die on her lips.