Gently into the good night

Chapter 33- I'll See You Soon

I go down to uncle. He looks upset as well. His fingers are entangled together while he is lost in deep thought. She is breathing heavily.

"What did he say?" I ask him timidly.

He leaves out a long sigh and says "he says he doesn't believe me and that he doesn't want to talk to anyone. It's a lot to absorb for someone who belongs to the 60's. He absolutely lost it when I told him you guys can't be together."

The sound of that broke my heart. I couldn't believe we wouldn't be together in less than a day. I hated the sound of that. I hated it but then on the other side I missed my family, my mom and my dad. Was I really ready to give up my life in the 21st century just to be with Chris? But what we had was more than anything to me in the world. I loved him and that was something. Something people don't give up, love is something people fight for.

I've never felt this way towards anyone. There were small things, small moments that made being in love beautiful.

Being in love felt like nothing about you mattered and it was their smile you wanted to see. The smallest things became a trigger of a thousand lyrical images. Any mention of the person made your heart skip a beat and make your blood flow with more enthusiasm. There is togetherness a stable state where the other person is a part of you. Being in love is both wonderful and terrifying. But at the end it's worth it.

"Listen Amelia, we love you. I would let you choose if it wasn't a life and death situation. But this is and you need to understand that. Love is an intangible. You can't touch it but only feel like. If your love is true you don't need any definite medium to love him. You can love him through all universes, cosmos, time and dimension. Love has no dimension that's why it's not confined to anything. Love is happiness and happiness is worth sharing. It'll hurt but you will know you love someone with all your heart and it'll be worth it." Uncle says walking cupping my face. He gently kisses my forehead and then excuses himself and leaves the room.

I fall to my feet sobbing. I can't imagine living a day without him. It's like waking up in the morning and seeing that a part of your body is missing. I was so used to him being with me. Regardless of all our fights and downs, we knew we were there for each other through everything.

Then suddenly it hits me, even when I'll be gone we'll be there for each other. We'll exist in each other's heart and memories. We'll exist in each other's love, through each other's sorrow and happiness and we'll always know that there is someone always out that who truly cared.

"Hey" Paul says embracing me. He strokes my hair gently as I weep into his chest. We sit there in an uncomfortable silence. After a few moments Jordan comes down when he sees me his face tightened and his smile disappeared. I don't know why he is so mad and what was so wrong.

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By the time we finish dinner there was no sign of Chris. I didn't want anything to happen to him and I didn't want him to do anything stupid. I wanted to go look for him but something was holding me back. The clock struck 11PM and I started feeling agitated. It didn't matter what was holding me back. I just knew where he was going to be. I just knew it.

"I've to go find him." I say standing up. Paul gets up too "I'll come with you"

I shake my head in refusal. "See I need to talk to him about this. He needs to hear it from me because he deserves to and I need to sort it out. Paul I appreciate everything but I don't want anyone else there."

"Why do you care so much?" Jordan says his voice full of detest and content. I hated that look on his face; it was so unfamiliar that I almost didn't know who he was.