I Still Miss You//Jack J

"Jack?"

Its been 4 months since the funeral. Depressed. Sad. Anxiety.

Havent been eating. I only ate the thing we loved to eat together the most, his moms homemade pizza, mouatindew and sometimes water. I would eat some chicken and steak. After about three bites i wouldnt be hungry anymore.

I havent been on my phone. I charge it. But never go on it. Calls from G and sam and Skate And swazz and justin and mike, but never answered.

Sitting alone in my room at the moment. All i ever did for the past 4 months. I do blame myself for his death.

Just then i felt someone standing behind me. I turned around and saw him. Couldnt breath, couldnt stand. Started breathing heavy.

"Jack?" He nodded.

"How? How are you here?"

"Im just here to tell you, that i was there at the funeral. And i love you to. And i know that you didnt mean any of those words you said. I didnt mean any of them i said either. And dont blame my death on yourself. It was God saying i gotta go. And you gotta go outside. You gotta eat. You gotta take care of yourself"

"Johnson, i love you so much" i started crying knowing that this wasnt the same.

"I know babe. I know. I love you to"

Just then my phone started to ring. I looked at johnson. "Gilinskys worried about you. He hasnt eaten becuase hes worried about you" i couldnt move. I couldnt do anything.

"Babe, just know that im always here. Whenever u need me. Im here. Im watching over you"

I nodded and hugged him. I missed him. He kissed me on the head. He lead me towards the phone. As soon as i turn around to ask him something, hes gone.

I answered the phone and Gilinskys crying. "Hello" he says. "Hey"

"Did he visit you to?" My heart dropped. So it wasnt just my mind messing with me.

"Ya. He did. Do u wanna come over?"

"Ya. Ill be over in 5" i hung up.

Johnson, i love you. And ill never stop.

I cried while writing this. Omg. 😭😭. I hope you liked it. I am going to start updating all my stories.