I Still Miss You//Jack J

"what?"

"So tell me, have your friends seen him?"

I nodded. "Yes, they told me theyve seen him and we all freaked out. I dont know why they would all to me and cry with me. If they havent seen him"

My mom and Jack wanted to take me to a therpist because they keep calling me crazy. Ive been coming here for 3 days, today is actually the day she tells me if im crazy or not.

To help me out and to help Dr. Smith. She took in nash, Jack, rupp, shawn, everyone, even sammy.

I dont know what they said, or what they talked about, i just hope im okay. And i wasnt being crazy and they werent lying to me the whole time.

"Well, Alex, i can tell you, you weren't being crazy, and your friends weren't lying to you, they saw him to" i nodded and sighed in relief.

"But, we are having a medium come in and talk with you" i nodded. I always wanted one to talk with. To see who would come thru.

She left and i waited. I wasnt aloud to have my phone so i just sat there.

After about 10 minutes, Dr smith came back with the medium.

"Alex, this Tyler, hes the medium"

"Hi Alex" i smiled. "Okay, wow, im getting a couple of people.somebody who died awhile back. Its a women, its not coming clear what she is to you, she is older, she died of cancer" i gasped.

"My grandma" he nodded. "She says she misses you and that shes looking out for you"

"We were really close, i was with her more than i was with my mom. And one day she was rushed to the hospital, had a cat scan  and was diagnosed. Died 8 months later. That was when i was 8"

"Well she wants you to know shes always here and shes making sure your safe. And that shes proud of you and that shes okay, and she was okay with dieing. She didnt feel any pain when she died. " i started crying and i nodded.

"Okay, im getting a guy, maybe 19? Died of a car-

I gasped and covered my mouth. He looked at me. "Thats Johnson. he died last year" he nodded.

"Okay. Thank you, he says he misses you, and im guessing he used to come visit you?" I nodded.

"Yes, he says hes sorry that he stopped and he still loves you very much"

"Tell me, am i crazy, or did i really see him?" He nodded "you saw him"

I smiled. Thank god.

Back home

"so how did it go?" i looked at my mom. "well, i wasnt crazy, i really did see him, and so did all the others, Tyler came in and talked to me, grandma came thru and so did jack. i really did see him and i wasnt being crazy" i raised my eyebrows at her. "i really did see him, SO THANKS FOR MAKING ME LOOK LIKE A FUCKING CRAZY PERSON" 

my mom looked at me like i was bout to kill someone. i was pissed. she made me go to a doctor for acouple of days and she paid all that money, FOR NOTHING. i took a deep breath, " i cant be stressed, i cant be stressed" and i walked away. 

"hey baby, howd it go?" i slapped his chest. "jack, YOU AND MY MOTHER MADE ME LOOK CRAZY EVEN THO YOU SAW HIM TO, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?" 

he looked at me the same way my mom did. i looked away. "i cant be stressed, i cant be stressed. its not good for the baby" 

and i walked away... again. 

i needed to go, i know i cant and i shouldn't. so i just on the porch, i need to be far far away from jack and my mother. 

"hey hunny" oh no. 

i turned around and saw Katherine. thank god. i sighed in relief  "hi mom" she smiled. 

"i know jack and your mother kept bothering you about it, so im gonna ask how it went. I always knew you weren't crazy. and you really did see him. So did I"  my head shot up so fast. she nodded. "when he came to see jack, he came to see me and said thank you for being like another mom to him. you arent crazy, and you arent the only one to miss him. i miss that kid so much." 

i started to cry. "Aw dont cry" she hugged me. "mom, i yelled at him. i yelled at jack, and he looked at me like i was the most scariest person hes ever seen" she shook her head. "its because you just shocked him, he still loves you very much. me and you both saw him in different relationships, he isnt like this with anybody else. hes different with you. hes happy. and im so happy you two got together" she sighed. "the time jack told me you and J were a thing, i was disappointed" 

"what? why? J is a good person" she shook her head. "no, no, i know, i was disappointed he didnt get to you first, i always wanted you two together" i smiled. 

"i love you momma G" she smiled. 

"i love you too Hun" 

i have a pretty great mother-in-law.