I Still Miss You//Jack J

"more than ever"

Jack Johnson. The person i have been dieing to see for the past three months.

I went to go hug him, but he stopped me.

"Alex. Your pregnant?"  I smiled and nodded.

"I-

"What were you and jack thinking?" My face fell, out of all people, i thought johnson would be most supportive.

"I-

"Your 19, hes 20, why? Why would you ruin your life with a baby?, your not keeping it right?"

Is he kidding me?

"Me and jack decided to keep the baby, it wasnt even a question. And you as our best friend, more like brother, should be supportive. Out of all people, i thought you would be the most supportive, but no, i thought wrong"

"Alex-

"No, its fine, support us, dont support us, its fine. Just dont except us to give up our baby just because our best friend isnt happy with it"

I walked inside the bathroom and got my phone out.

"Jack" i didnt mean to break down. But i did.

"Alex, whats wrong?" I couldnt speak, i couldnt even move. "Alex"

"Its Johnson, i saw him, and he told me that we are ruining our lives by having this baby. And he doesnt support us" jack was so silent i thought he hung up. "Jack?"

"Uh, ya, i-im here. Im just shocked. I thought he would be then most supportive" i nodded. Realizing he cant see me. "Me to"

"So, are you changing your mind because johnson said this?"

"Oh lord no, hes not changing my mind. If he doesnt want to be supportive of his two best friends, then thats his lose"

"Thats my baby. I gotta go and finish this song, you gonna be okay babe?"

I sighed. "Ya, im gonna be just fine, i love you"

"Okay, if you need me, just call, i love you too"

I put my phone away and walked out of the bathroom to see johnson no longer standing there.

I walked back to the group and everybody stared at me. "What?"

"You okay?" I looked at them werid. "Ya, im fine, why wouldnt i be?"

Kelsey got up and sat by me. "You have tears rolling down your face" she wiped my face and showed me the wet spot on her finger.

"Oh, i just yawned. Im so tired" they all looked at each other and nodded.

"Okay if you say so" everybody got up and got ready to go out onto the stage.

"Ready?" I look up and ricky held out his hand. I nodded and smiled. "Lets do this"

Andy goes out and i hear screaming. It was so loud, my ear drums burst.

"How yall doing tonight?" Andy yells over the mic and more screaming comes from the thousands of people.

"Let me introduce some people" more screaming.

"rickyYY DILLON" ricky runs out and i so much screaming is going on.

"Hey guys" he waves to the crowd.
"Andy is gonna let me introduce some of my best friends out on to the stage. So lets give it up for, ALEX RODREQUIZ" i run out and everybody is screaming.

"Thanks for coming out guys" i waved and everyone screamed.

5 minutes later everybody was on stage. We were all jumping around and partying on stage.

The music stopped and i looked at ricky. "I guess its time for our q&a" everybody cheered and andy and michael (our lights person) brought out chairs for all of us.

"First question" a girl stood up and brooke (a girl who helps with stage on tour) gave her the mic. "This question is for trevor" he nodded "you just recently came out to us, do you read the hate? And if you do, how do you deal with it?"

We all looked at trevor and he looked at us, then back at her. "Well, i sometimes read the hate, but when i do, its not that it gets to me, its that it makes me so mad because, why hate me for being happy? And i flick them off, cuz im a superstar and there not" trev snapped his fingers and  we all laughed.

The next girl stood up. "This one is for andrea, do you have a boyfriend we dont know about?" The crowd all "oo" ed and we all looked at her. "Andrea, are you cheating on me?" Ricky put his hand on his chest and mouth open.

"Oops, sorry ricky, ya she is, with me" jc got up and grabbed andreas hand. Andrea and I laughed so hard.

Andrea took the mic "no, i dont have a boyfriend, guys are douchbags"

The next girl stood up and looked dead at me. "This one is for alex" she smirked and i knew she was gonna say something about my new video. "So your two months pregnant, and your enganged to gilinsky, which by the way, congrats, and how are you cooping with Johnson dieing, cause honestly, im doing horrible and i need advice" i took a deep breath and sighed.

"Thank you, and How i cope, is kinda looking at all the pictures of us, and thinking about all of the memories we had together. If you met him, than think about that time, and i talk to sammy, shawn, Gilinsky and the others about Johnson, and it really does help" she nodded and smiled.

The last person to stand up was a guy. "This last question is for alex as well, i know the whole thing with you fighting with johnson before he died that night, do you blame yourself for his death in any way?"

"At first, yes i did, but now, no. I learned that at times people do have fall outs and people fight. And what happened was for a reason. Um, im gonna sound crazy, but the first two months after he died, i yelled at the top of my lungs, "im so sorry johnson" and cried my eyes out. And i felt this relife, like a weight was lifted off of me. And i feel like johnson was there with me that night and kinda said "i dont blame you, and i still love you" type thing"

Yes. I still miss him like crazy. More than ever.

I just wish he supported our decision.