I Still Miss You//Jack J

"you have to move on"

Acouple of days later..

Since J told me and Jack to be nicer to Rupp for him, we invited rupp to  breakfeast at ihop so we can talk.

"Alright, talk" rupp said while we waited for our food. G started. "Okay, we want to say sorry for what we said. It was uncalled for and if johnson was still here, he would want us to be nice to you" i nodded.

"Ya, he always wanted to make up with you, he just never got the chance" rupp nodded.

He didnt say anything. He just kept quite. Our food was here and we ate in quiteness.

Then after finishing all his food, he finally spoke up. "Okay, i accept your apology. I mean, we cant hate each other forever. Its kinda stupid. And if i could, i would definitly say sorry to him. I missed johnson and you guys so much. Yall were like family" we both just nodded.

"We missed you man" g spoke up. I just smiled and nodded.

I still didnt like him, im just doing this for johnson.

"So, how are u holdin up, i know you and J were really close" rupp looked at me with pity. I didnt want his pity.

"i miss him. he was my best friend" rupp nodded in agreement. 

"i know, when i heard the news, i called his phone and freaked. knowing he died, i didnt know what to do, so i called his phone" i looked at rupp... 

"ya, so did i, i called his phone two days after we all knew he was dead, his voicemail came on, and i freaked, threw everything around in my room. had alot of panic attacks after that" g looked at me. "that happened?" i nodded. "i couldve been there for you" i shook my head. 

"i didnt want anybody there. i wanted johnson to be there" 

later on that day, me and g decided to go to the mall and shop. 

we found a bench and sat down to rest. "you know whats creppy" i looked at g "what?" 

"i thought i saw johnson standing by the surf boards at holister. he always wanted one" G said, chuckled, and shook his head. i got up and ran outside. 

"JOHNSON" i yelled. i kept yelling johnson. but no show. 

"alex" g was behind me. breathing heavy, from running. 

"i thought i saw him  to" i took a deep breath and yelled again "JOHNSON" waited acouple of minutes. still a no show.it feels like i  havent seen him in a month or 2. 

"alex, you have to move on. hes not gonna show everytime you call him. ya, i understand your pain, he was like my brother. i miss him so damn much, but its life and you have to move on. the world doesnt stop because somebody dies. you have to move on" 

i hated to admit that he was right. but i couldnt. 

i dropped to the floor and cried. i burried my head into my knees and cried. 

i couldnt move on.