I Still Miss You//Jack J

"Alex, i can explain"

As soon as andrea and ricky made sure i was okay and they left, i called jack.

"Hey baby, i cant talk, im in the studio"

"Jack, can you facetime, i cant tell you over the phone like this, i have to see your face?"

He sighed. "Okay, ill facetime you" he hang up and facetimed me.

"What up babe" i looked at his surroundings. "Jack, i thought you said you were at the studio?"
"I am- . "Hey jack" i heard a girls voice in the back.

The girls face came in the camera. "Jack, whos this?" She looked at jack.

"Im the girl he knocked up, and the girl who was dating him for almost a year. Now im just his ex. Have fun with him, bye jack"

"Alex, wait, alex, i can explain"

"How jack? You needed somebody to keep you acoupied? Somebody to have sex with while i wasnt there? Or to get somebody else pregnant and have them stuck with you?"

"This isnt-" i shook my head "this isnt what it looks like? Then what is it?"

I hung up and got ready for the show. I was to mad to cry. So i just punched the wall. I threw my book out of the window.

"Hey" i turned around and saw ricky.
"Hey rick-

"Jack just called me-

"I dont wanna talk to him ricky, fu** him" he sighed. "He said-

"Ricky i dont-

"He said madison was just a person who he was working with. and he acucually was in a studio, see" he showed me the picture of the booth he was at with madison.

"Then how come sammy said-

He sighed. "You need to call jack again" he picked up my phone and called him for me. "Hey jack, here she is" he handed me the phone. I shook my head.

"Alex, im going to shove this down your throat if you dont talk to him" i sighed and took the phone.

"Listen, jack-

"No, you already talked, you intrupped me, now its my turn to do the same. Alex, i love you so much, that baby and you are my everything. Madison? Shes a good friend of all of us guys, she sings really good and we are doing a duet, nothing more. I havent even looked at a girl like the way i look at you, why would you think i was cheating on you?"

"Jack, i know all of this, and im so stupid, i was talking to sammy and i told him im pregnant and he told me he saw you acouple of nights ago with a girl at rupps house party-

"Rupps house party? Rupp is in indiana, and he has been for the past 2 weeks. And i havent been to a party since, forever"

"Im so stupid"

"No your not, alex, wait, you do know sammy has been to rehab and had a therapist. Right?"

"Ya, he told me he went for 4 months after johnson died because of a really bad drinking problem"

"Ya, he did, but there was more to it. Sammy is a fu**in psycho, theres more to him than any of us will ever know. He always had a therapist. but the only person that could help him thru the crazy times was johnson. Johnson was the only person who could control him, but when he died, sammy went even more pyscho, and drank alot, and ended up in rehab. And the only reason why he stopped is because every week he has to take a drinking test and if he doesnt pass it, he goes back to rehab for even longer this time"

"So your saying i should never trust sammy?"

"Thats up to you babe, i know you guys used to be close, so if you guys get close again, and he goes crazy on you, dont be scared, just watch out, and plus, never tell him where you are"

"Thanks jack, and im truly so very sorry about how i freaked out on you. And tell madison i said sorry too"

"Its okay babe, ill see you soon"

"Okay, i love you"

"I love you too"

I checked the time and it was 6:30. Almost meet and greet time.

I cleaned up alittle. Did my hair and makeup.

I put on my blue ripped jeans, adidas shoes and pink adidas shirt.

"Hey, meet and greet time" our mananger, andy came in and told me and ricky.

We walked out and got drove to the arena. As we drove up, i could hear the fans screaming. I looked at ricky.

"Arent used to it yet?" I shook my head. "Me neither" he answered.

"Ready?" I nodded. We got out and already flashes went everywhere.
I look up and i see this girl crying.
Waving her phone back and forth.

I go to her and hug her. "Are you coming to the meet and greet" she shook her head, still crying.

"Here babe, take this and go to the meet and greet line. Ill see you there"
Me and rickys and andreas body gaurd came up and grabbed me. "You need to get inside" i nodded.

"I love you guys, see you inside"

"Did you give a fan a gold vip pass?"
I nodded. Ricky smiled. "How?"

"I found some, asked andy if there good to use, he nodded, and i took them, and all he did was laugh" he shook his head. "And thats why your fans love you"

"Well, they love you to, remember, i know how fan girls work, i was and still am, one" i smiled.

They placed me next to trevor. I was first in line for the fans to meet. "Ready?" I looked at trevor and nodded.

"You ready?"

"For sure. I love doing this" he was shakey but he was smiling like there was no tomorrow.

The first person came in and she ran to me. "Oh my god alex i love you so much" i hugged her. "I love you to, whats your name love?"

"Selena" she said shakey. "Awe thats cute" she smiled "thank you. You know alex, you helped me thru alot and i couldnt have made it here without you, well, without you, i wouldnt be alive, so thank you"
My heart dropped. I started to cry. "Oh my god" i hugged her.

I held her hands for the picture and looked down. "Babe, you did this to yourself?" She nodded and looked down. I kissed her scars. "Please, dont ever ever do this again. Okay? Im always here for you. Okay selena?" She nodded and cried.

"NEXT" they yelled. She gave me the note she wrote and walked off to trevor.

I kissed her scars, because i remember when me and J were at the beach and a fan came up to us and he saw her scars, and he kissed them. And said, "hopefully i just healed your scars, and i hope you never ever ever do this again, your body is to precious to be harming yourself. Promise me to never do it again?" She nodded and cried.

We saw her a year later, and she told us she was a year clean. Something i hope i could do for selena and more of this family.

Even with Johnson not here, i can hear him saying stuff in my head. Saying to do stuff like that. Or even give gold vip passes out to fans who dont have them.

He has taught me so much, in so little time.

Oh lordy do i miss Jack Johnson.