I Still Miss You//Jack J

"alex, im here"

Jacks pov

(finally right?) 

"come on j, you gotta be here. you gotta help alex. please" i looked around. still nothing. its been like this for a month now. 

"g" i looked around when i saw j by my door. "johnson" i smiled so wide. johnson hugged me and i started to cry. 

"whats up with alex" he said while letting go of the hug. "shes not okay. she cant move on. she- 

"g, i was there that day. by the surf boards, i was there when you went to lean in on a kiss and she looked away and didnt relaize what you were doing. i saw all of it" my heart dropped and my face fell. 

"look, johnson, im sorry,-

"no, its okay, if you like her, go for her, make her forget about me, make her happy, if you dont, i will have to kick your ass even if i am dead" we laughed. "johnson, i miss you alot. it sucks not having my best friend here" 

he nodded "i was there at the funeral gilinsk. i heard what you said. how you cant live on without your best friend by yourside, how your not gonna go thru with making music without me" i nodded. "please, dont. G, im still here, just not here. im still lookin out for you guys. always" i hugged him. "love ya bro" then he left. 

ALEXS POV 

right now sitting in my room, facing the window, looking down at all the kids playing and having a fun time. dont have a care in  the world arent sad or depressed. wish i could go back, 

i havent seen or spoke to Gilinsk in awhile. just not in the mood i guess. 

"why cant you be here johnson. when i need you the most, where are you?" 

i felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around. 

i gasped and started to cry when i saw who was standing  infront of me. 

"johnson!" i hugged him so tight. "oh my god i miss you so much" he hugged me tighter. 

"gosh, alex i missed you so much also" we stood there hugging for what seemed like forever. but in this case, i could stand here and hug him forever. 

"alex" he let go of the hug and looked me in the eyes. "you have to move on, you cant stop living life just because mine stopped. you have to keep going, and G, he really likes you" 

"wait.. what? G, likes me?'' he nodded. "well, im still in love with you'' J shook his head. "no, you have to move on, like i told G, im here, alex, im here. just not here. okay?" i shook my head no. "no, i cant move on J, you were my best friend, i was lowkey inlove with you. you were my first everything  J. i cant move on" 

"listen to me, i love you, so much. it pains me to see you with Jack everyday. smilin, happy, but only becuz im not here to do that anymore. but it pains me even more, to see you locked up in your room, depressed, having anxitey attacks, that hurts me becuz i cant help you. im not gonna be here everyday to help you out. so, i hate when people say this, but, if you do really love me, go out, have fun with G,sammy, nash, matt, go out to parties, and try to forget about me" 

"for you, ya, ill do that. but i cant forget about you. thats the one thing i cant do" he nodded. i hugged him again even tighter this time. "i love you so much alex" 

"i love you to johnson. wait, how come you never show when i call your name" he shrugged his shoulders. ''i cant always be here babe, but i try, just look around" i nodded. then he left. 

"knock knock" my mom, who is never home, walked in my room. she smiled at me and sat down with me on my bed. "so hows everything, sorry i didnt come back till dismorning, then i slept alittle, becuz i was jetlagged. but hows gilinsky and hows johnson? did johnson finally ask you out?" she smiled. 

ya, its kinda sad, that my mom didnt even pay attention or check up on me every now and then when she was in china. my mom travels alot. and my dad left when i was only 3. so no, they both dont really care about me. 

"mom, you didnt hear?" she looked concered. "no, what happened honey?"

"mom, Jack, died around 6 months, tomorrow is 6 actually. he died in a car crash" she covered her mouth. "oh my god, honey, im so sorry, i didnt know-

"ya, you never know. i waited sometimes for your calls. never got any, i needed someone, i had nobody.for 4 months" she looked at me with pity. "honey-

"please, i dont want your pity, thats i all i get now, is pity. just please leave me alone" my mom walked out of my room. i layed down and looked at my phonee seeing that i have a text from G. 

"do you want me to come over?" 

i replied with "yes" 

5 minutes later i heard the doorbell ring and my mom said "shes in her room" g walked in and layed down with me.. 

we cuddled and i ended up falling asleep. 

i was waken up by jack moving. "hey, im gonna go" i looked at him. "o" 

"ill stay" while rolling his eyes. he chuckled. he got back in bed. i smiled at him and told him thank you for staying. my mom knocked on the door. "come in" 

"hey kids, Alex, im sorry about earlier. so i went out and bought chipolte  for you and jack. jack told me it was your favorite so i got it for you" she smiled. "thank you mom" i took the food and she got my fav, chicken and rice bowl with sour cream and cheese. 

"thanks mama" she nodded. "and my boss called and said that i have to be away for another month, i have to go to England." my heart dropped. "okay. have fun" 

"but, i said no. i told him what happened, and that my daughter needs me. and if i have to be fired, then go right ahead. but he understood." i smiled so wide. i gave jack my food and hugged my mom. "thank you mama. i love you" 

"i love you to" 

my mom left the room, but kept the door open. 

"alex, did he ever come see you" i nodded. "ya, he did, he told me that i could move on, that he still loved me, but i could move on" 

"and what did you say?" 

"i said, i couldnt, that i love him to much, that johnson was my first love, even if we didnt date, he was the one who was always there, but i promised him i would try to move on" G nodded. 

i felt bad, becuz ya, i did like G. but i was inlove with jack for so many years. i cant just move on within months. i hope G can understand that. 

"G, i like you. alot, but i need you to understand that its gonna take me awhile to move on" He nodded. "of course, ill wait, and ill wait. it doesnt matter. i love you alex, and honestly, its been great hanging out with you and becoming really close" i smiled and hugged him 

"thank you  for everything" 

"im always here. your stuck with me now" 

"oh great" i said triying to be funny, even tho im not. 

then, while hugging G, i saw J standing by my closet. smiling. 

i smiled back, he mouthed "awww" i laughed to myself. 

then he disappeared. i miss him alot.