I Still Miss You//Jack J

"I need you"

after, seeing my unwanted dad, jessey told me to go home and he will cover for me. i didnt know how to react on how seeing my dad. jack drove me home but couldn't go inside. 

"thanks for the ride" he nodded "love you alex" i smiled. "love you to"

"mom, im home" i put my stuff down and went into the kitchen to see my mom making dinner. 

"hey honey, have a seat, we need to talk" 

"i saw dad tonight" mom spun around faster than i ran to the car dis morning. "wha-

"ya, he came to my work and gave me a lot of disrespect, slapped me, and jack had to tackle him, to make him leave" i wasn't gonna bring it up to her, but i didnt want to talk about having sex with jack with my mom. 

"what did he want" i shrugged my shoulders. "i have no clue, i didnt wanna find out, i told him, he wasn't my dad, that i didnt have a dad, and that i dont and never want him in my life" she nodded. 

"im sorry that happened" she hugged me. "well, im just gonna go up and take a shower" 

"wait wait wait, we have to talk" she sat me down, and looked at me in the eye, 

"first of all, did you use protection" 

"MOM" 

"what, alex, its serious, what if you get pregnant"

"mom, im not going to. okay? me and jack are responsible, cant you trust us?" she nodded. "thank you" 

"but, please, leave a sign next time, i didnt wanna see my daughter in bed naked with a boy next to her" we laughed, "okay mom" 

i went upstairs and layed down. 

"johnson, where are you" i sat up and looked around. "i really need you johnson, jack. please" 

i started to cry and burried my face into a pillow and cried so hard. 

"hey, hey, im here, its okay im here" i looked up from the pillow and saw jack. "johnson, oh my god your here" i hugged him tight. 

"i missed you alex" i nodded. 

"hey, how are you and jack doing"

"we're doing good, i really love him J" he nodded. "i know" 

"so tell me" i sat up. ''what is it like, traveling fast" 

"well, its fun, but i dont go anywhere, im usually with you, G, or the boys" 

i nodded. "wait, where were you last night?" he laughed. "i told you i wasn't gonna be watching you guys, i visited Nash and Shawn that was the first time i visited Shawn, he cried. i felt so bad"

"Johnson" 

"hmm" 

"is this real? any of this? it doesn't feel real. it feels like im having a bad dream and i wont wake up, i feel like, your not dead, i feel like your not really here" 

he nodded. "ya, its real Alex, i dead, but im here, this isn't a dream, its real life" 

"Johnson, i miss you so much. i love you. i will always love you" i started to cry. "its okay, i love you to" 

"i gotta go, but, i love you,, and i know your sorry about everything" i nodded. "its okay" i nodded again. crying my eyes out. he kissed my forehead and then disappeared. i miss my best friend so much, more than anyone will ever understand.