I Still Miss You//Jack J

"end of conversation"

I have been pacing back and forth around my hotel room, with the phone in my hand, one click away from calling jack, trying to find ways to tell him. For the past 4 hours.

"Hey, jack, im prego" i shook my head. Thats a bad way to tell him

"You okay alex?" I turn around and see ricky. I nodded. "Ya im fine" he raised his eyebrows. "Andrea told me, its okay" he walked over to me and gave me a hug. "And if jack wont be there for you, i will, im here for you"
I smiled and hugged. "I love you ricky" he hugged my tight. "I love you too"

"And if you want, i can be here when you tell jack" i nodded. "Will you?" He nodded.

I looked at my phone and pressed the button.
After 3 rings he picked up.

I put it on speaker phone so ricky could hear.

"Hey. Im sorry i didnt see you, and im sorry i didnt answer or call you back, im truly so sorry" i sighed.

"Its okay, jack"

"But how are you? Hows tour so far?"

"Its fun, um, i have to tell you something?" Breathing heavy and im really nervous. What if he leaves me? I cant loose jack.

"Okay" he stopped. "Is everything good?" I shook my head. "No, jack"

"Okay, whats wrong?" He started to panic. "Okay, jack, can you not freak out, and promise me that everything is gonna stay the same?"

"Of course baby" i sighed loudly. "Okay, jack, im pregnant" the line stayed silent. "Jack?"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, jack, im sure"

"And your sure its mine?" I gasped and looked at ricky. He had his mouth dropped to the floor.

"Jack, i havent slept with anyone except you" he sighed. "Okay, well, i need time to think" i furrowed my eyebrows. "About what jack? If your gonna stay with me?"

"No, alex im gonna stay with you, i have to think if im gonna want to have this baby up for adoption or abortion"
"Jack, no matter what, im having this baby, and im keeping it"

"Alex, thats something we both have to discuss" i shook my head.

"Jack, this is my body, yes, you have a choice to leave, but you dont have a choice if im giving birth to this baby, and you dont have a choice if im going to keep it, we got ourselves in this mess, so its our responsibility. Im not giving my baby away to some strangers. And im not killing an innocent baby. End of conversation"

"And if you dont to not be a father to our baby, and be one of those dads, fine, but tell me now" i was praying to the lord he would stay with me. I love him, and i cant loose both jacks. Both my best friends. Both mean to much to me. I couldnt live.

He was slient. I heard dead silence. "Jack?"

"Okay ill be there for you, ill be a father, ill be anything you want me to be. Because i love you, and id do anything for you" i smiled.

"I love you jack gilinsky"

"And i love you alex rodriguez" i looked at ricky, and he smiled at me. "Yay" he mouthed and smiled.

After hanging up with jack, i had to call my mom.

"Okay, so now your mom?" I nodded.

"Do u want me to be here?" I nodded. "And thank you ricky. This means alot" he nodded and smiled.

"Okay" i clicked the call button and started to shake.

"Hey, did you land" my mom picked up after 1 ring like she was waiting for me to call.

"Hey, ya i did like yesterday" i laughed. "Oh, i never got a call missy. Whats up"

"Oh nothing, um, mom. I have to tell you something, and you have to promise not to freak out" i looked at ricky and he looked nervous for me.

"Okayyy. Whats going on? Your scaring me"

"Mom, what if in 9 months, a little baby called you grandma?" Dead silence. "Mom?"

"Im sorry, did you just say-

"That your gonna be a grandma in 9 months? Ya" i said really really fast, hopeing that she wouldnt hear me.

"ARE YOU CRAZY?" i closed my eyes. I couldnt deal with the yelling. Not now. I need my mom here for me.

"Jack already knows. And hes willing to stay with me and be a father"

"Okay, thats good, but ALEX, your 17, 17, AND HAVING A BABY? What about college? A life before babies?"

I shrugged my shoulders, "im sorry i disappointed you"

"Honey" she sighed. "Its okay, how did you find out?"

"I woke up two days in a row puking and andrea noticed i looked pail and she took me to the doctors. For the next two months andrea and ricky are taking care of me" i looked at ricky. "Say hi to ricky mom"

"Hi ricky!" We laughed. "Hi mama rodriguez"

"Okay, well im glad you told you, and ricky, thanks for taking care of my daughter while i cant"

"No problem"

"Okay, mom, i love you"

"I love you to, call me later"

"I will"

Well, that was successful. Thank god for ricky and andrea. I dont know where id be if i didnt have them.

Just wish i could have johnson here with me. That would make things 100% better.