I wish I was as ok as I pretend to be
With out you here with me
And I know everyone sees these scars
That's why I spit these bars
And keep chasing speed in these cars
Acting like I'm king of everything
I can't even make your smile gleam
Who the fuck am I kidding
You were my kitten
I had a purpose
Without you I'm worthluss
Who the fuck am I
To think I can cry
It's so much easier to do a drive by
then it is to let you go and watch us die
and I think that's why some days are better then most
and other times I'm like a host
to my depression
and 9/10 I'm stressing
every morning while I'm dressing.
It's like all I want is to see you and be In love
Now your free like a dove
And I'm still hear making you the one I dream of
I'm pathetic and sweet
And I can't take this heat
Not again my friend I can't go back to the street
No more Runnin drugs
And gun slugs
You were my release
The drain
for my pain
God how I miss that leash
Sheesh
I used to say I felt like a dog
But now my lungs fill with smog
Without the pull of my collar
And you waving me back with a holler
Who needs to be a baller
I had you.
Hind sight is 20/20
And now I lost my bunny
You don't love me anymore that's true
Were threw.
I'm conflicted
Restricted
Constructed
Everything I do
Is wrong to you
And now I think I'm Too far gone
All I'm good for is being wrong
Now it's me you look threw
I don't know you.
I don't know me
And I just wish I could see
How this all turns out cuz right now I'm a damn tea pot short and stout
bout to blow my mother fucking brains out
My judgment you clout
Your all I dream about.
I scream and I shout
But dear god the memory of you it don't come out.
So I can't do this I'm out
I won't be another thing for you to complain about
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Poems of the strange
PoetryA collection of poems that hit on the subjects of despair loneliness and isolation as well as multiple personality Please as always with all of my works keep an open mind and if this one isn't for you it isn't for you. Mmfwcl hope you enjoy :)