Blackmoon's Mate

Adapting to Loving You... Again

Tyler^^^^^
Auroras POV
I wake up dreading being alive. I'm not ready to face another day of torture. I try to move out of the soft bed but an arm cafes me in. Where am I? Whose bed am I in? Most importantly who the fuck am I in bed with! He arms are covered in tattoos that remind me of Tyler. Wait a second, I look in the arm and try to find what I'm looking for then I find it. A rose tattoo with my initials and dates on it. I am truly happy to see him but I don't want him to see me like this. All broken and unattractive. He doesn't deserve to feel as if he couldn't save me then in turn feel like he could've done something to prevent it. I will try and get better but that also means I'll fail. I'm going to fail a lot. I don't want him to suffer while I am. Ugh decisions decisions. As I am lost in thought I failed to realize that he is awake, not only is he awake but he is staring at me. "Tyler. I um hi?" saying that made me feel stupid. He looks a bit pained but begins to speak, " Please listen and don't interrupt. I spent a long time without you. Longer than I even care to remember but I remember because it had to do with you being without me. When you were broken your wolf called out to me and I heard and felt everything. Every time your emotions are strong I can hear everything you say and feel everything you feel. I know about everything and I won't pretend to know what it feels like first hand but I know what it feels like because when you went through it over there I was with you. I felt the pain then the razor then the emptiness that escaped each fresh cut on your skin. Each time you were touched as well as each time you blacked out so you didn't feel the pain. You told yourself you weren't raped and that Tobias and Luke always stopped it. That isn't true and your wolf knows it because she cried out to me each time it happened. It broke my heart each time it happened then made me so incredibly angry. My first response was to be pissed at you and them. You for not being able to defend yourself then them for taking you and touching you. I told Jason and he punched me in the face. He said it wasn't your fault and when i thought about it I knew he was right. I'm blaming you because it's better than blaming the one person who is responsible for it all. I didn't want to blame myself because I'd feel even worse. After that talk I cried very hard because it is all my fault. I should've protected you, should've found you sooner and should've treated you better. I hurt you a lot in the short amount of time you were with me. I will always be sorry. Losing you also made me realize how much I love you, care about you, and cherish you. Being away from you was single handedly, the worse pain I've ever felt in my entire miserable life. I never want to be separated from you again. So please darling, forgive me for my mistakes and accept the love I am giving you. Not the love you think you deserve. As we all know that is what we do. We accept the love we think we deserve but baby you deserve so much more than what you allow yourself to take," he finishes looking deep into my eyes.
Tyler's POV
I looked deep in her eyes as I finished, holding my breath waiting for her to respond. She stares at me emotions flickering in those beautiful eyes of hers. Her eyes continue to wonder around not completely ready to come to a total stop as if anything definite will ruin her. With a sigh I leave the room and decide to make breakfast so I can continue doing the one thing that I'm good at; work. I make some scrambled eggs, turkey bacon, pancakes and French toast. I get a heap of food and make my way to my office eating a strip of bacon. I walk in and in the chair across from my is Jason. He turns and looks at me slowly and smiles lightly. When I sit he says, " Man, how are you? How is she? I couldn't have made it that long without Sarah. Are you okay man? I wouldn't have left the room if I had just got her back." I look at him and am a bit irritated. I know he's worried and all but this morning is already very sucky. I don't want it to be any worse.
"She is fine I guess. Just resting and such. She hasn't been here in over 6 months all together so she's really overwhelmed. I had work to do so I left after her and I talked a little. I don't really feel like talking. Do you think we could stop talking?", I finish feeling even more irritated. He gives me a surprised look then a curt nod. We sit in silence working on pack work that doesn't need to be done for a few more weeks. I tell him I got the rest and he left looking back at me as if at any moment I could break. As I am "working" the door opens and I am hit with Auroras scent. I watch her walk in silently she's freshly washed and wears my shirt and a pair of shorts. Aurora sits in my lap and nuzzles her face in my neck her mind racing with many thoughts. A few of the  thoughts that cross her mind a lot are the thoughts of leaving to get better and of me rejecting her because of her "weakness". I give her kisses on her forehead and tell her that I would never leave her. I also tell her that if she thinks she needs to leave in order to get better than I will allow it. As I say these words my heart feels as if a fist is squeezing it but I have to think of her first. Soon she's asleep in my arms and I carry her upstairs to her room. After she is sleeping for 4 hours she finally woke up. "Hey um Tyler we need to talk. I know you heard my thoughts. You know how I feel and I really appreciate you allowing me to leave and heal. I just feel like I need to do this by myself," she looks at me as she speaks. "I would do anything for you and you know that. We can discuss this more later. Let's go eat dinner yeah?", I say while walking out. Tonight I made steaks with a side of salad. She ate most of the steak and half of the salad. Afterwards we watched moves and after a few hours went upstairs. As I went into my room I heard her thoughts. She's wondering if I am okay and if I will be okay when she leaves. We look at each other from the opposite sides of the hall. It never even crossed my mind that this would be the last time I saw her for a long time.
Hey guys! How goes it? I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and sorry it took so long to update. I need help with who is who. Aurora is biracial with curly hair and hazel eyes. Tyler is up above. Chose Aurora and we'll vote from the top 3. Comment, vote and share guys! Love y'all. Coolio 👌🏾😘