Blackmoon's Mate

Time Doesn't Fly

Tyler
I've come to the conclusion that whatever sick person said that time flied had never been away from the person they loved. The one year mark was last week and that year felt like 12 years. Every month felt like a year on its own. At first we thought she would never wake up. That she'd stay in this coma until her body and mind found its "inner peace" whatever the fuck that meant. Elders have been telling me a story about this woman named Belle and her cheating mate. Basically she died in his arms by her own hands and she died but wait there's more. Then a fae man casts a spell that helped her and all werewolves in this situation which is unbelievable considering they hate us, but wait there's more! She was alive but I'm a coma till she made peace and forgave everyone, but that's not all folks there is FUCKING more. A part that is always fucking forgotten in these damn retellings; when the mate wakes up all memories of her mate are gone. Ding, ding, ding we hit the fucking jackpot, fuck the lotto we struck gold! My mate won't remember the time shared, she'll only know we are mates. The shit I go through for this girl man I swear. I visit Aurora everyday and I talk to her. She looks a lot better than what she did a few weeks ago which is amazing. Her skin is almost the golden tan it was before she went into her coma. Her hair isn't lifeless but has a bit more bounce. Some days her body moves and she will roll off of the bed but she never wakes. The elders say she's doing it. They says she's going to wake up soon but I don't like to get my hopes up. For the first few months I was lost and had so much I wanted to say but just couldn't find the words. Jason suggested writing letters to her and I have been doing it ever since. I decide to write a letter today, "Dear Aurora, It's been a while since I've seen those beautiful eyes and breathtaking smile. Exactly 371 days 10 hours 58 minutes and 32 seconds since you've been awake and since I've been alive. I may be breathing but trust me I'm not alive without you with me. This past year hell the past 2-3 years have been absolutely crazy. We've been apart longer than we've been together and that certainly says somethings about us individually and together. We always end up with each other in the end in some way shape or form. When you left me for that year it was one of the most eye opening, heartbreaking and excruciatingly painful times I've ever experienced. Every night I was popping those special pills so I could just sleep without you. I wanted to find you hell I did find you at one point but by then my wolf was so hurt and angry he didn't want to see you. Him and I just shut out our connection. When you came to visit us after 6 months of being away seeing you overwhelmed me but you know me, I wouldn't let that show. I was so hurt that you were away from me yet you looked a lot better than you did when we were together. You looked as if being away from me did you more good than being with me ever did and that nearly destroyed me. Out of anger and hurt I said those hateful things and in a way tried to reject you out of my heart. I know you felt it because you looked into my eyes and I felt your pain but simply showed you my anger. I couldn't let you know I was hurting because honestly I didn't want to be the one in the relationship that gets hurt. You know, the one who ends up damaged and still holding on while the other one is living their life. When we let you back in the day you came back for good I made the worse decision I've ever made. I had anger sex. Of course I've had sex before with different women but that was before I had a mate. It wasn't even consensual but it still felt like hell. I call it sex instead of her raping me because it sounds a lot more bad ass. It was a mistake  because I shouldn't have let that girl even kiss me which also wasn't my doing. Damn, when did I become a total bitch? First a hoe kisses me without me wanting it then she drugs me and rapes me. Anyway back to you. I just want you to wake up honestly. I don't talk to Jason much anymore. Sarah is the one who said those things that drive you over the edge and I can't deal with either of them without you by my side. You always calm me down and somehow allow me to think as a man and not as an angry Alpha. I guess that's why you're so good for me. You don't take my shit most of the time and you always bring out the compassionate, kind, sort of understanding Alpha whom I had no idea of until I met you. My love for you is unmeasurable, undeniable and it consumes my entire being weather I show it or not. I guess it's time for me to end this torture of a letter. You've left me 2 notes/letters and they have both been heartbreaking. Well I have to go "live my life" whatever that means.
Love, Your Alpha".
After I write my notes I usually read hers. Even though they are heart breaking they still are from her. Today I decided that I would go for a walk instead of sit next to my mate who just saddens me with her non movement and inability to make me laugh. As I was walking around receiving looks of shame, guilt and sometimes pity from my pack mates something in my heart felt off. Suddenly Doctor Daniels' voice sounded in my head, "Alpha come quick it's the Luna". With that I got my sorry ass up and ran to my baby.
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