Blackmoon's Mate

Losing Ourselves in the Chaos

Tyler's POV
Ever since Jason walked in that day and told me this we've been preparing the perfect plan to get my mate back. It has been 2 months and about a week but even now it feels like we needed more time to prepare the perfect get away. We first had to establish that she was indeed on Alpha Luke's territory and as soon as we ran through the woods we smelled her and my father Tobias. The smell of her blood was strong and angered me to the point where j was ready to take her now, not caring about anything else. I had to stop and think as well as shut out my wolf for my thoughts to go from murderous to rational. I decided that we would act like we sensed nothing then leave instantly. I went into a trance of solely focusing on getting my mate and now here we are. Jason, my pack warriors and I are now going over this plan and making sure we had 4 other plans we each knew perfectly in case we encountered any type of set back. We study the map of his land as well as study his warriors border patrol rotation and now have it down to perfection. I have made everyone aware that we are not to attack unless attacked. There will be no killing of women and children unless absolutely necessary. They can render the wolves unconscious or do something that ensures they will be out of the way but alive. My wolves have made me so proud in the pursuit to get my mate back. I have already set up appointments with the pack psych and have notified her that my mate will be in a horrible head space when she meets with her. She understands and gives me her word that she will make it her personal mission to help my mate in this hard point of her life. Now that everything is in place we decided to rest because tomorrow would be the day I  get my baby back. My wolf, pack and I are eager yet scared at the same time. What if she decides she doesn't want to live? What if she has lost everything? I find myself wondering who I am in midst of the chaotic world I've been in the past few months. I feel as if I can not longer just be me, like I am not me when she isn't here. There is no me without her so therefore I have lost myself in the chaos of her. I take a pill that will knock my wolf and I out for 12 hours straight allowing us to be at our strongest. Before it works I have time to eat, shower and quickly pray to the Moon Goddess all goes well tomorrow. After prayer I sleep and for the first time am sure that by this time tomorrow I'll be with my mate. I wake up feeling better than I've felt in a long time. I do my daily ritual and by the time I am finished I am met by all the members who have dedicated themselves to finding my Aurora. We move towards the Blue Moon borders and swiftly take out the guards before they even have time to notify the others. We storm onto the lands and kill any male who thinks they can take us. I mind link Jason to follow me and that Tobias and Luke are mine but I'll need help in the house. I break down the door and am killing people left and right as my wolf takes over smelling my mates blood. As I tear a wolves throat out I start to make my way towards where her smell is the strongest. Well here goes nothing...
Auroras POV
I have officially lost hope and will to live. It's been 3 months of torture and my wolf and I are weakened to the point that my cut marks don't heal as fast. The emotional abuse is nothing compared to what I feel inside so it doesn't hurt as bad. When I first realized that their words have lost its kick and all I feel is numbness I cried for days. I have been broken and am pretty sure that not even my mate can fix this. The one thing they haven't done is rape me. Their friends will sometimes come down and touch me but before anything serious can happen my uncle or Tyler's dad would come down and stop it. I look out the small brick window at the moon and sigh in sadness. I don't know why the Moon Goddess chose me for this steady torture nor do I appreciate it. I mean not only have I lost my mate but I essentially lost myself. No longer am I the happy girl who loves the world around me and others in it. No longer am I the girl who loves the idea of being around those who seem off just to make them feel good. I am no longer passionate about having pups and spending my days with my mate and pack. Thinking about such things now turn me slightly bitter and just leave me wanting to end this pain that I constantly feel. I can't even shift but my wolf seems a lot stronger than what I expected. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I could shift. I wonder if I would be strong enough to to escape this hell hole even if I was killed a few minutes into my freedom. At least I would die out in the woods where my body could be discovered and hopefully properly buried with my pack. The thought of my death also brings me to what would happen after I died. I know that Tyler would never be the same and would probably die without a heir considering his wolf would be heartbroken with my death. Sadly there is no second chance mate and for those whose mates died they just have to go on and hopefully find someone they love almost as much as a mate. I plan on ending my life pretty soon but my wolf seems to be hesitant to let me cut that deep. She heals the deeper cuts and then shuts down so that I fall asleep then she takes over and heals me. Today I wanted to end it for good but something told me something big was going to happen. Sometime around noon Tobias and my uncle Luke came downstairs and began the usual assault to my mind, body but not my heart. I would not give them that satisfaction even though I do unwillingly. I will never let them see they've broken my heart. I hear loud crashing and a growl that makes my heart flutter, stop, then speed up in the same beat. In this moment I know very few things for certain; these two are going to die, I'm going to be reunited with Tyler, I'm starving and that Tyler is going to be seriously pissed.