Blackmoon's Mate

Hurt

Tyler
As I walked out of the room after seeing her harm herself my first thought was a quote from a movie my sister made me watch at the beginning Rusty says, " I remember that it hurt. Looking at her hurt." I went to a cave I found years ago and just cried. Looking back on the time I spent without her while she was in Spain I somehow managed to stop crying and just find my anger. She constantly hurts herself and it hurts others. Instead of thinking of her I decide to focus on that movie. It is called Stuck in Love and it's about a family and their individual ventures in love. The father is waiting for the wife to return, the son falls in love with a drug addict and the daughter is promiscuous and refuses to fall in love. I identify most with her. She just has sex and then leaves, no feelings involved. I can't remember her name but she is portrayed by Nina Dobrev. Nina's character meets a guy who convinces her that love is a great thing. Nina doesn't want to love and be hurt like her father. I don't want to love because it would mean my world would come crashing without this person. Let's talk about me shall we? I am covered in tattoos, spend a lot of time working out and let's just face it I scare people off. When I met my mate you expected me to do a jig and love her? You wanted me to drop everything and make sure she was all I needed? Yeah fuck no. Maybe at first it was like that but we've been through so much I start to wonder what it would be like if we rejected each other. I mentally go through the pros and cons when I just decide to leave. I want to get out of here and spend time to myself. I run home with a newfound sense of hope. I pack a few weeks worth of things and head to Lake Placid for some me time. I spend 2 weeks swimming, fishing, running and thinking. When I returned home Aurora was no where to be found and I was informed that she left as well. Her leaving isn't a surprise honestly. While we were having a meeting Aurora came in asking questions just to answer herself saying and I quote, "Nothing but fuckery" before walking out. I have to admit that was hilarious. I finish my meeting and go find my ma- Aurora. I have to get used to being mateless. "Can I come in?," I ask knocking. I hear a muffled yes and walk in. I am surprised to see her in my shirt with only underwear on and it takes a lot not to change my mind. "What do you want?", she asks me without looking at me. "Do you think we can fix this? I mean we constantly hurt each other and the only way we justify it is by saying things were bad at the moment. You don't remember me nor do you have feelings for me. All we have is this bond that is barely there. If we reject each other now we won't have much heartache to suffer from. You have done nothing but leave and come back then you died and came back. I mean yeah I'm glad you're alive but you tend to only make decisions without thinking of those you effect. I'm sure you could easily find someone else and you know I don't want love. You could find someone to love you for the rest of their life if you let them. I'm not saying that in the past I wouldn't but it was in the past. Look at us Aurora. We spend weeks apart from each other without speaking and we justify it by saying you have no memory or feelings concerning me. You know that it's going to be hell for us I mean you have no feelings for me yet want love. I don't have feelings for you and don't want to love anyone. I'm just sorry we had to go through all of this to find out this couldn't work." I say taking a deep breath.
"You fucking dick. All the shit we went through! I mean yeah I don't remember and neither of us have feelings for each other but maybe it's a good thing. We go weeks without talking and it kills me! I cry myself to sleep thinking you won't ever love me and that you'll find someone else. I WANT this with you and only you. Rejection is out of the question. We could try and make it work in our advantage. Take things slow and grow to love each other. We have to talk about our issues and just in general learn to love. I know you don't want to love anyone and hell I wouldn't want to love me either after the shit I put you guys through. I am trying to fix it even if it takes months, years or even decades! I know I probably sound like some hopeless romantic who does something horrible then goes on to change their ways. In a way I am. I hurt all of you without thinking and I have a chance to take it all back. I want this so bad Tyler. Please just give us another chance. You know the third times a charm but I swear a fourth would be golden," Aurora says with tears in her eyes.
"Looking at you hurt. That is what Rusty said in the movie Stuck in Love. I don't give chances. It's hard to earn my trust the first time so what makes you think that a fourth time is that easy? Life without you could very well be easier than life with you. I'm willing to sacrifice my happiness if it means I can find a Luna who isn't my mate to ensure our success. Don't try me. I think rejection could very well be good for us," I say looking at her. The next few words out of her mouth make me want to apologize and kiss her. "Are you rejecting me?"
Hey guys! Mwahahahaha are they staying together? Weren't expecting that now were you? Hope you enjoyed it. With much love guys! Vote, comment, and share