Bits of Poetry

Hell On Earth

Exhaustion paired with stress

Headaches & lack of oxygen

Shivering, sweating in the back of the room

Silent tears & quivering shoulders in bed at night

Choking on salt, unable to breathe

I'm done

There's a pit in my stomach

That won't go away

Panic attacks happen more often than not

Anxiety hits me like a brick 24/7

Must be addicted to Ibuprofen by now

I rarely sleep & when I do

I have such horrible dreams

Dreams that fill me with false hope

I almost wish I had "nightmares"

Dreams that detach me from reality

Maybe then they're not so bad

If hair changed color based on emotions

Mine would be black, grey, & midnight blue

Black for depression & sickness

Blue for sadness & loneliness

Grey for exhaustion & stress

Maybe some red would be thrown in there

For all the times I've wanted to hurt myself

As the gorgeous Aussie, Troye Sivan, says

"I am tired of this place

I hope people change"

I'm so tired

I'm through with the world

I want to start over

But you can't always get what you want

For I will forever be stuck here

In this hell on earth

Which is my unfortunate existence