Bits of Poetry

Being Me

I'm a teenager

A confused, psychologically unstable teenager

Thoughts in a jumble

Words come out in mumbles

Self-esteem lowers

When I see friends with their lovers

Thoughts darken

As I reckon

That our lives is pointless

And my existence is meaningless

I wish I could just become

The girl inside because you're one

Feelings for him, but what about him

Why couldn't love be easy, instead of suffering under Cupid's whim

I try to fit in with your groups of friends

But I give up all hope and become a recluse instead

Because they are mostly indifferent

They couldn't care less if something happened

Like if I went away just like I'd planned

Before certain people stayed my hand

If only I wasn't permanently scared

To take risks and be me, I'm just too prepared

For laughter and judgement, rejection and scorn

I've been so used to it, like an infuriating thorn

But now it's time to put that all behind

Remember to love, laugh, and be free & always be kind

Live out the new year the way I think best or want

If you judge me or laugh, I'll say, "Piss off, you fuck."