Lost And Found

Chapter 33:Love and Marriage

The door clicked open as it revealed mom opening the front door as she entered with a bunch of grocery bags in her arms.

"Oh hey! You arrived early! I thought you were coming at by lunchtime? I think its only 9?" She asked relieved to the 'crew' while her eyes were glancing to my face as she had a worried face on.

"Right. About that,we're very sorry If we came early,Is it okay if we go on?"
Dylan says.

"I think you have some explaining to do."

"Umm.. I'm very sorry. Could we like actually have this some other time? I do have your phone numbers I'll just give you guys a call. Very sorry."

Mom apologizes to the group as they start to fix up their stuff and said their goodbyes to us.

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She sighs deeply,her mouth starting to open up.

"I thought maybe you and Austin get married and start a family,now that you have Jay,I figured you would find it hard to raise him alone. You need him,honey."

"Yeah,that's solution number 3. Solution number 2 is try to communicate with others and obviously fall in love and get married. Solution number 1 is raise Jay with myself and with family and friends. See? We have a LOT of solutions!"

"That's not how it works."

"Yes it is."

"I don't want Jay to be raised the same way I raised you! Being left alone raising you without a father,and that was a very bad mistake that I regretted it. I don't want that to happen to the boy."

"You might be right in that point,but still. Marrying the wrong person and spending the rest of your life with him would feel like you've eaten Brocolli for breakfast,lunch and dinner. It sucks!"

"Kate,you are a mother now,you're Jay's mom,and that means you have to sight as an example to him as you grow up,the way you raise him will affect his whole life,forever!"

"Well nothing wrong happened to me just because you raised me by yourself right?"

"There were some,actually. So you IN or you IN?"

"What? Is there even a difference?"

"No! That means you're doing it!"

"Mom,I'm doing this because I love you,and I believe that 'Mothers knows best.' So don't ever disappoint me if I ever did this. And just so you know,One day you'd regret what you made me do. Marriage means commiting yourself into someone and becoming one with him. I hope you realize that."

And I walk out in front of her.

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I enter Jay's nursery,I didn't even know he and his aunt were inside. Sneaky!

"You know about this?" I breathed in deeply as I ask her.

"Please,don't get mad at me. We all got opinions,and my opinions to Bryan is that he's one of those jerks whose fond of leaving people behind. While my opinion against Austin is that I believe he's a good guy. True fact,Yes. He did break your heart once,He entered your life once again just as to prove himself to you that He could change his ways and possibly a foster father to Jay and a husband to you."

I breathe sharply,I didn't know what to say. She was right. She was right at the way she gave her opinions about the two.

"What did it feel like when you said,'I do' to Kendrick?" I looked directly at her face,her eyes glistening brightly.

"No words can explain that feeling I had,but emotions can."

I hesitated to reply back to her. I was thinking things through,things that may happen when I end up with him. Yes,All the wrong would be replaced of the right if I did,but would I be happy?

"At first I was against your mother's decision. But I think it would be best to marry someone who you don't love,yet cares for you and your son rather than marrying someone you love that would just leave you behind after marriage." She remarked.

"Look,I get that you disapprove of him,But I believe he has reasons for doing the things he has done."

"Think this through,not only for me,for your mom,for us or for yourself,Think this through and do it for Jay."

I didn't know what to do anymore.
Was I gonna waste the most important day of my life to someone I don't love anymore just to do the right? Or would I fight for the thing that I think is the best?

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End of chapter 33..