Lost And Found

Chapter 39:Little Miss Minor

Its 2 weeks before the big day,so preparations have been a bit tight these days.

I had now chosen the right dress choices. I had chosen two,actually. Because,I need two of them. One for the wedding and one for the after party.

Its almost as close as my dream wedding. Though I still fear of things,things like my blackmailer who calls himself Anonymous. I also fear the thought if Bryan would ever go back here and crash it? And what if my wedding to Austin and what happens to the rest of my life with him would make me happy and wouldn't let me regret that I married the wrong person,that I just spent the rest of my life with someone my heart knows that I don't belong to.

But there are times,where I would think,What if I could learn to love him? Love him or feel the way I felt whenever I'm with Bryan. The feeling when I'm with Bryan is unexplainable,Its different when I'm with Austin or with someone else. Bryan doesn't make me feel the same way I feel about him. He makes me feel special,makes me feel important and become part of something I once thought I couldn't be part of. But,when I'm with Austin,I feel different,not as the same way I feel towards Bryan. The feeling is kind of 'complicated'. I don't know what the both of us are doing and what is our status,I mean do we even have a romantic status? When I'm with Austin,I feel as though I'm pretending to make out with a mannequin,like its untrue. Like Austin and I are actors who are trying to portray a role that we know we won't be able to apply in the real world.

The real world where I don't know what I'm supposed to do,where I don't know the real reason why I'm even here. The real world is the time of your life where you stop being your past selves and at least try to overcome your inner selves,its the time of your life where you'd have to follow your heart but would always have to remember to take your brain with you.

Its kind of odd or somehow a coincidence that by the time Bryan went off with his family in Canada (or so as told by his cousin,Jaime),a few following weeks,a blackmailer comes crashing in.

There are a lot of questions with different topics in my mind right now. Specifically 3 topics:

1.The wedding/The wedding Planning/The wedding crashers

2.Jay's upcoming birthday bash

3.My lovelife/Married life

Now how am I supposed to answer all of those questions in each topic if can't take off my mind with a single one?

***

I came up to see Jaime in the coffee shop again today and asked Tippie,someone who works with Jamie at the desk if she knew where was she. The Tippie answered me that she would be starting her shift in a little while. I told her that I'd wait for Jaime until she comes and would sit down and drink cappucino while doing so.

Moments later..

"Kate?" She approaches me,a questioning face come up. I guess she was puzzled seeing me again.

"Hey!" I stood up from my seat and offered her a seat.

She asked Tippie to cover up for her for a few minutes.

"What brings you here?"
She asks.

"Nothing much. Just thought maybe you could lend me some help?"

"Help? Sure. What is it?"
She seemed curious.

"The last time we talked was a week ago,and you told me that if I had a problem with something,I could always tell you,and I was hoping you could."

She listened in closer.

"Someone's been blackmailing me for more than a week now and I'm becoming furious and desperate to know who it is and what does he want. I keep on worrying on things because I always think that maybe the blackmailer would make a way in it."