Minecraft Diaries Zane x Reader | Changed

Medicine

So, as I have noticed my views have been diminishing, or going down. I kinda feel bad now. Can some one tell me what I am doing wrong? And by the way, what should I do to celebrate all of these views?

~Zane's POV~
"I'm sorry, Zane~Kun, but in order to make (Y/N)~Sama her medicine, I would need a misto plant, and they aren't near Phoenix Drop at all! They're somewhere in Tu'la, in a village called Cassel!" I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. I decided in that moment that I would travel to where it was and bring some back for my darling withing the next week.

But before I go, I just needed one more face battle with her.

Once I was done with that I had got my guards to get me a boat large enough for me to stay on, and any other hostages. As I walked to the docks, I heard footsteps, but thought nothing of it until I was at the docks and someone fell down. I quickly turned to see my (y/n) laying on the floor while looking up at me. Her face was set to a grimace. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!" I yelled at her. I helped her to her feet and she clutched on to my clothes to help her stay up. "Zane, I don't want to be here alone," she whined.
"Now now, I'm sure you'd be well taken care of here. You have lord Aphmau, Lady Emmalyn, Kawaii~Chan, even her guards might help. Everyone's pretty friendly here."
"But I'd be scared without you."
"Some guard you are," I teased, "are you scared that I'll find someone else?"
"Yes...," I started to feel bad now. (Y/n)'s eyes started to well up in tears and she began to cry. "Oh shut up you cute crybaby and let's just get on the boat." I picked her up and put her over my shoulder and got onto the boat.

Though I would come to regret that decision.

As I sailed off to Cassel, I started to get a bit tired. I sighed and just focused on where I was supposed to go. (y/n) was sleeping in my quarters and she was all I could think about. Her lovely smile, her awkwardness around people, the way she acted was extremely hilarious, but not embarrassing hilarious. She was an overall good person.
Unlike me.
I've kidnapped, tortured, killed and robbed people. I've done some things so bad that Irene would be ashamed to have me as her faith. I'm so sure (Y/N) had heard, and that she was weary of me when we first met. I just hope she knows better now. I'd punch anyone into a thousand tiny pics with my bare hands before I'd let any harm come to her. I know how cliche that sounds, but I can't help how I feel for her. I just want to hold her in my arms and hide her away from the world. I love (Y/N). I love her so much.