Twilight Short Stories

Bella- Human - Pregnant

   It's been two weeks now since I've been pregnant. Two weeks since Carlisle confirmed what would be Edwards worst nightmare from then on, but my personal miracle. I appeared to be about two months, since the fast growth rate of our child, even though it hadn't been nearly as long. My baby bump could clearly be distiguished now, but wasnt so big that it was annoying. Edward is miserable. I've never seen him so unhappy, and I know he is worried for me, but I want him to be happy for us. We never thought such a thing could happen, and it did. I just need him so bad right now, but he's not there. He snaps at me, or tries to change my mind, and when I finally get him to listen, we fight. He's not on my side, barely anyone is, and the worst part is I don't even want there to be sides. I know he loves me, but I'm not going to die if that's what he's scared of, I wont. This baby boy, or possibly a girl deserves to live, and it will. I won't kill him. That little baby that I hope looks just like Edward that I love so much.

    I was laying upstairs in our bedroom. Carlisle does tests everyday on the babies growth, but thankfully I was done for the day. Charlie doesn't know we are home yet, but soon we are going to have to tell him that I am "sick". I rubbed my stomach lightly, it only stuck out a little, in a roundish way, but people could definitely notice I am pregnant. My clothes just started becoming tight on me so I took to wearing Edward's clothes to bed, even though Alice bought me a bunch of maternity clothes, but Edwards big t-shirts were more comfortable.

    A tear slid down my face before I could even realize I was crying. I felt a small kick from my stomach and rubbed the spot. "I miss him too," I whispered.

    I just want him to hold me, and talk to me, and kiss me. I don't want him to be mad at me or call our baby a "thing". I want him to tell me he loves me, so that I don't feel like he hates me. I pulled the comforter up over me, wiping away my tears with it. I tried to fall asleep, but to no avail, because too much things are on my mind. I felt eyes on me and looked up, hoping it wasn't Carlisle needed to run more tests. It wasn't. It was Edward. I hope he cant see that I was crying.

    "If you want to yell at me then please leave," I whispered. "I can handle it some other time, but not now."

    His face contorted and his eyes looked sad, a usual lately. He walked over to the bed and scooted under the blankets next to me. He didn't hold me though, but I could feel the coldness of his skin that I so desperately longed for. Maybe because I'm too fragile or because he just doesnt want to hold me anymore

    I looked at him, only a foot from me, but yet so far away. "Don't hate me," I whispered. "I need you,"

    "I don't hate you I could never, you know that."

    I used to. I really used to know that but how could I believe what he says now, when he thinks I'm going to leave him soon. When he thinks I'm making the worst decision ever, and not listening to his pleading.

     "Are you going to try to convince me of something, or argue with me?" I asked, my hand on my stomach.

    "I'm not. You already know how I feel, I'm not changing my mind, but I won't yell. I'm sorry for yelling Bella, I just cant lose you. I'm scared and if something happens to you it will be all my fault because I'm such an idiot."

    "I don't regret anything, it's a miracle Edward."

    "It's a disaster, that's what it is."

     I closed my eyes. "You're upsetting me,"

    "Do you not want me here?"

    "I want you here, I will always want you here, but it isnt you anymore Edward. It isn't you. I always want you to talk to me and hold me again but it doesnt happen. You yell at me and say mean things, and it doesnt feel the same. I guess I understand but I wish things could be different, that I'm not alone in this because I need you so bad but you arent there." I said, tears falling freely.

    "I don't mean to leave you alone Bella, I just dont see where you are coming from at all." He said, wide eyed. As much as he hates what I'm doing I also know he hates seeing me cry, but hey this is marriage right?

    I started sobbing loudly now, and this time he did hold me, making me cry even more. I couldn't hear if he was talking or not because I was crying so hard, but he was holding me, so it's ok. I squeezed him to me, and he rubbed circles on my back.

    "I'm sorry," He murmured. "My Bella I'm sorry, I don't want to lose you."

    "I don't want you to hate me," I got out in between sobs. "Please don't hate me, it makes me s-s-so sad."

    Is this the hormones? I'm never like this. Maybe I just miss him more than I realized. Im not stubborn when it comes to this, like he might think, but its a completely different matter. I'm just so sure that my decision is the right thing.

    "I don't. No matter what I say or what I do, I dont. I love you more than anything." I kissed his cheek and folded myself under him.

   I wanted to tell him how much I loved our baby, but I didnt. He wont agree. He doesnt understand. I just kept my mouth shut so we wouldn't argue. It's my body so he can't do anything about it, but he'll see. I will survive, and he'll be happy I made the decisions I did once our baby is in his arms. He will love him the way I already do.

    I tilted my head up, seeing if he would kiss me, and he did. It wasn't the longing type of kiss that it used to be though, but I understand. It was a type of kiss that old people give eachother. A kiss to say "I still love you." I'm ok with that I guess, as long as he loves me I can survive anything. And I will.

  Im sorry its another short one guys, but I think its cuteeee! ;) Vote and comment lots, I love hearing what you guys have to say, and I write your suggestions and I have a few short stories finished so if you vote, I'll upload them! xoxoxox,

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