Usher's Hidden Princess

Chapter 38

Chapter 38;

-Justin's P.O.V-

I stared at the ceiling, thinking about it all. Brooklynn is pregnant, I'm the father.

What is Usher gonna say? My mom? Scooter? My Beliebers?

Every thought was rushing through my head. Will Brooke and I start getting into fights? Will we be able to make it through this?

I am so confused. Maybe Brooke and I should end things for awhile, the thing is though. I love her to much to let her go.

Her modeling will go straight down, my music, will most likely stay on top. I hope. My head was spinning and my stomach twisted with the thought of leaving Brooke. I don't know what I should do, and I most defiantly don't know what is going on inside Brooke's head.

Does she want to leave me, now that she is pregnant, and doesn't want to risk my career? I mean, I know she loves me, therefor she'll want whats best for me. What if she does end it with me? Will she stay out of camera view, or will she just express the fact that she is pregnant?

I couldn't get the questions to stop, even if I tried to think of other things. They wouldn't stop popping up in my brain. These thoughts are going to haunt me, going to eat me alive, until I find out the answers.

Should I even tell my Beliebers? Not if Brooke and I end things, but that would look bad on my part. Brooke being pregnant, and we just end things. I have no clue what to do in all of this. I don't know what is going to happen, I just hope, Brooke and I see through this.

Maybe she will lose the baby? Why am I thinking like this? Do I want her to lose the baby? Why is that going through my head? Am I bad person, if I say yes? Yeah, I would be. I don't want her to lose the baby, just maybe give it up for adoption? My mother wouldn't like that, no she wouldn't like that at all. What is wrong with me? I'm Justin Drew Bieber, I never think negative, but I just don't know what to do. I feel as if every little piece of me is breaking, shattering to pieces with every thought. I can't just give up everything, but I can't give up my Brooke, nor will I.

I wont give up on Brooke, or my baby. Or will I? God Damn It! Justin stop thinking so negatively! I threw my hands on my face, rubbing my temple.

I can't drain myself of energy like this. My brain is like a fuckin' tornado, spinning, spinning, dragging everything with it, throwing shit, destroying shit. It needs to stop, but why wont it?

-Brooke's P.O.V-

I sat on the sandy beach, sitting on a towel, just taking in the ocean, and the breeze hitting my face, but the bad thing was that I had millions of thoughts dancing, through my head. I looked down at the cup of warm tea, resting in my hand. I try to forget everything, all these stupid little questions, and thoughts, they wont stop. My mind was spinning. Why was I so stupid? Does Justin actually want this baby, or does he just act like he does? Should I just leave and tell Justin, that I need to think? What will my dad think? Will Pattie hate me? What will Scooter say? My grandparents will be so disappointed in me. My brothers wont know whats going on, but they're going to be Uncles, and are going to have a niece or nephew at only 4 and 5 years old. Naviyd and Usher, but also Jazzy and Jaxon. Why did this happen? I have to leave, but the thing is I love Justin to much to leave. Then again, I can't let this ruin Justin, maybe I can just go off to a private area for nine months, then give it up for adoption. No, I will not give up my child, ever! I sighed and grabbed my phone, dialing the number of a person I knew, would help me.

"Hello?" Her voice rang through my ear. I broke right then.

"Meet me at the old park in 10." I hung up my phone, and got to my feet, walking back to the house, sneaking around people.