I still can't believe what happened yesterday. The one person that I gave all of my love to for almost a year. He just got up and left. He was cheating on the the entire time.
Did he ever love me? Was this his plan the whole time?
I had thousands of questions.
I was mad at him but hurt even more.
Was I really a whore or bitch? Was I really fat and ugly? Was I really unloved and useless?
I didn't really wanna go back to this. I had been a year clean.
This is exactly how it happened the first time. Now all of the tears came back.
I looked through all of my jewlrey boxes for that one piece of silver metal.
That blade.
I wanted it, i needed it.
As soon as I found it guilt rushed over me. It's been a year, am I really about to give up all of that good for him.
The replay of what happened yesterday came back to me.
Yes. I was
As soon as I slid that blade across my skin, relief washed over me.
I watched as the blood trickled down my arm. I liked it.
No more pain, just pleasure.
I was washing the red liquid from my arm when a sweet aroma filled my nostrils.
I'm starved. The last time I ate was at lunch yesterday.
FAT FAT FAT.
That one word replayed in my head. I was fat.
I could just skip this meal, right? I could do that and be fine.
My stomach growled in disagreement.
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5 Guardian Angels
FanficAlexia was a great student. Didn't have many friends and had some serious problems ever since her ex-boyfriend Drew broke her heart. Can these 5 boys fix it?
