I Don't Get It

Chapter 10

JENNIFER's (pov)

Shortly after Jason left Jacob and Dasha left also, I couldnt believe my best friend treated me as though he was my owner no one gave him the right to do that. No one. I was sitting on the couch looking really depressed when I couldnt take it anymore. I needed to be free of Jason. I ran upstairs into my room and went straight to my wall of memories and the first thing I did was rip the picture of Jason giving me a piggy back while we were on the beach, then my sweet sixteen picture were he was my escort, Then the one that we took when we went to paris to see my grandmother last summer.I took them all down, and tore them all up. When the only picture left was the one of my father that he painted, I kept that one because it was a picture of someone who was dear to my heart, someone who I lost. I stood there looking at the picture and the tears that I wanted never came out not one tear drop. I turned away from the wall that no longer held memories just the picture of my father and I walked into the bathroom to shower off the second worst day of my life.

When I got out of the shower I changed into old soccer shorts and my dads old t-shirt. I pulled back the blanket on my bed and got in, as soon as my head hit the pillow I fell asleep. Then I had a dream.

I was valedictorian! And principle Matthews called me up to the podium to do my speech, everyone was cheering. I got up from my seat and walked toward the podium and looked to the crowed. I saw friends, family, my mom ,my step dad. And My dad , he was there sitting between my mom and grandma videotaping my and waving. I hated that video camera. I felt complete. I started my speech. "The one thing I remember people telling me when I was young that I could be anything I wanted to be, as long as I set my mind to it. And for a long time I believed I could be wonder woman." The crowed started to laugh. " But it was until I was about seven when I tried flying I realized I couldn't. I wish someone wouldv'e told me I woudn't be able to fly before I tried jumping off the staircase at my fathers house, and landing face first on the floor and losing a tooth, that I can't be wonderwoman because I can't fly. Maybe you need to learn those lessons yourself to grow and follow in the right directions. My father always told me to walk by faith and not by sight, and I never knew what that meant until today. As I am standing here as the valedictorian talking to you, all my peers I realize what it means. I think it means never spend your time worrying about what you cannot do. For what you can do is all the better" I paused to look at my dad, he looked like he was about to cry , then i couldn't see him. I looked at my mom and sitting beside her was my grandmother. My dad wasn't there, he never was. As soon as that happened I woke up.

Thats when the tears started I needed someone. Badly, I picked up my phone and dialed Jacob's number.

"Hmmmmmmmmm"

"J---Jake" I said trying to control myself with the crying

"Jen. Whats wrong" he said waking up from his sleep sonding worried.

"I.......I . Had .A." I couldn't finish

"Dream. you had a dream about your dad. Kay I'm on my way" He hung up shortly after.

I sat down at the corner of my bed room and waited for him to come.Ten minutes later he came into my room. When I first started having the dreams turn nightmares I gave the Blane household a key so if I was in shock or scared to open the door they can let themselves in. Jacob opened my room door and looked around, all of the pictures were on the floor and ripped.He walked over to me and picked me up so I was standing he lifted me up bridal style and carried me to my bed. I got under the covers and he got in after me, he pulled me so he was sitting and my head was on his chest. I cried harder and louder. I cried for the worst birthday ever. I cried for losing a friend on my birthday. I cried because my mom wasn't here , and I cried because I lost my dad .

When I finally stopped Jacob was playing with my hair and humming, In the Arms Of An Angel by Sarah McLaughlin. For some reason when ever he did that it calmed me down completely. Before I knew it I fell asleep and had a dreamless sleep.

JACOB'S (pov)

I woke up and opened my phone to check the time, it said 5:52am. I turned to my left and saw Jennifer sleeping peacefully. She has been through alot lately and when she called me last night she was in no condition to stay home by herself. Usually when she has these dreams Jace is always with her but they had gotten into that awful thing yesterday and she sounded like she needed someone. Over the Sixteen years that I new Jennifer she has never cried so much, not even when her father died. I hated seeing her like that, I was already mad at my brother for hurting her and losing her trust but I was mad at myself for not knowing that the entire time. I wanted to murder Daniel for hurting my best friend when it was my brother my identical twin who was hurting her. He was the one who made her rip all of her pictures, he was the one who got mad at me for kissing her because he 'loved her' whatever. I can't believe anything he says anymore.

I got up an hour later and decided to go home to shower and change, and come back to Jen's house to watch movies.She needed a friend. And I was going to be here for her, no matter what. I got up and headed out the door. When I got home I unlocked the front door and headed into the kitchen. When I got there I saw Jason eating cereal reading the paper.

"where were you" he asked not looking up from his paper.

"Out"

"For the entire night Jacob? really?" He asked.

"Yes Jason now can we drop it" I didn't want Jason to know were I was. As far as he was concerned he didn't need to know about Jennifer anymore they weren't friends.

"SO were did you go"

"No where" I replied

" OH so you went nowhere in my car" he said.

"NO ACTUALLY. I went to see a friend my BEST friend actually. Jennifer you remeber her huh? the girl we knew since we were like two years old? the girl who's father died, who's boyfriend left her and went to california wait. No. Who just found out by her returning ex boyfriend that YOU, sent him away from her because you were being what? hmmmmmm.........................let me guess SELLFISH because you can never wait for things you just always want them immediately. And frankly Jason I am tired of your bull, do yourself a favor and stop acting like you are that important. Cause you really are not. And judging by the way you threw away sixteen years of friendship last night. You really need to act right, and STOP acting so immature" When I was finished I looked up at him and her looked so surprised.

"Oh and if you think that this will blow over in a couple of days, you are completely wrong and stupid. You my brother let me down and most importantly the girl that you and I care about and who you appearently "Love". If you loved her like you said you did you wouldn't have done that." I said turning away from him and heading up the stairs. " Asshole".

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Sorry it took me too long to update I was really busy Have school hope this helps.