Jikook Presents: Its Started With A Kiss

chapter 28: Forgotten pasts

She didn't know how to explain as her heart was beating faster than its usual.

First of all,why did she let a stranger to kiss her?

Secondly,why she have a feelings that there's something,,something that she really doesn't know how to explain about the kiss.

And lastly,,Why her heart was beating fast as if the kiss alone feels like home?

She's now in confuse situation.

Yeah,she's always confuse but it's another story.

"Jas,gising ka pa ba?"
Katok ng kanyang ina na nagpanumbalik sa naglalakbay niyang diwa na punong-puno ng katanungan na hanggang sa mga sandaling ito ay wala pa ding kasagutan.

"Yes Mom,please come in"

Then her door slightly opened and reavealed her Mom.

"Kumusta naman ang pakiramdam mo?"

"Medyo masakit pa ang ulo ko,but I'm okay now Mom"

She smiled and kissed her daughter's pale cheeks.

"Buti na lang at nandito kanina si V para alalayan ka..Ang batang yun hindi pa din siya nagbabago"

She just stared at her Mom for a short while.

"Sobrang ganda ba ng mommy mo kaya mo'ko tinititigan ng ganyan?"

"Ah yes you're pretty mom..But I want you to tell me the truth..Bakit at Paano mo po nakilala si Taehyung?"

She sighed and took her daughter's cold hands.

"Anak,,si V or si Taehyung,dati pa magkakilala na kayo.Halos tumira na nga kayo sa iisang bahay dahil hindi kayo mapaghiwalay na dalawa"

She looked into her mother's eyes.

Bakit wala siyang maalala?

"Bakit hindi ko maalala? Bakit hindi ko po siya kilala Mommy?"

She sighed again for the nth time today.

"It's because you met a car accident and almost killed"

What?!

"And you do have an amnesia.And so Taehyung..I guess pareho kayong hindi pa magaling"

"P-pero Mom paanong-

"Twelve years old lang kayo ng maaksidente ang sinasakyan niyong school bus.At sa dami ng mga kapwa niyo estudyante na nakasakay sa bus,kayong dalawa ni Taehyung ang napuruhan.As I told you awhile ago,you almost killed.We've thought that we might gonna lose you since almost a year,you are in coma stage..Halos mawalan na kami ng pag-asa ng Daddy at Kuya mo until one day,nagising ka na lang at wala ng maalala kahit ano maging kami na pamilya mo ay hindi mo din maalala.Kaya naman napagdesisyunan namin ng Daddy mo,na dalhin ka sa U.K para doon ipagamot..And the rest is history"

She doesn't know how to react.

"B-but what about Taehyung? Anong nangyari sa kanya?"

"Napag-alaman namin na nawalan din siya ng alaala dahil sa aksidente.Tanging ang mga ala-ala niya na kasama ka ang nawala sa kanya.Hindi ka niya maalala anak"

Hindi pa din siya makapinawala sa mga naririnig.

"At nakakalungkot na kinailangan niyong maghiwalay na dalawa.Alam mo bang,ang sabi ni Taehyung pakakasalan ka daw niya kapag nagdalaga at binata na kayo.Na sa murang edad niya,may nakaplano na siya para sa inyong dalawa.Nakakatuwa siyang bata,dahil makikita mo sa mga mata niya kung gaano ka kahalaga sa kanya,kung paano ka niya pakaingatan.He really love you and you also love him.Ganun kayo kalapit sa isat isa.Kaya nga nakakalungkot lang ang sinapit ng puppy love story nyong dalawa"

Ganun ba?

Kaya ba,tila malaking parte ng buhay niya ang nawawala sa kanya?

Dahil ito ang pinakamalaking parte ng buhay niya na nawawala sa kanya.

Ganun na ba kalalim ang pagmamahal nila sa isat isa?

Pero bakit ni minsan hindi nila binanggit ito sa kanya?

Halos kalahati ng buhay niya nangangapa siya sa dilim.

Halos kalahati ng buhay niya para siyang robot na walang maramdaman,dahil ang nilalaman ng puso niya,ay kasamang nabura sa kanyang alaala.

"Pero bakit hindi niyo man lang binanggit ang tungkol dito? Bakit?! Mommy,matagal na panahon akong parang isang bulag na nangangapa sa dilim..para akong isang ibon na hindi makalipad dahil naputulan ako ng isang pakpak..Bakit,Mommy? Bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi?"

Naiyak na siya ng tuluyan.

"I'm sorry anak..yun na nga siguro ang malaki naming pagkakamali.Ang manahimik and did nothing.Ang sabi naman kasi ng doctor mo,kusa namang babalik ang mga alaala mo.Sorry talaga anak"

She didn't responded.

She just wanted to be alone again to think.

"Anak,,are you okay?"

"Gusto ko na pong magpahinga Mommy"

She sighed and nodded and she kissed her daughter's forehead before exiting her room.

So what now?
I guess I'm back to zero.

She thought as her tears are still flowing on her cheeks.

Pa'no na siya ngayon?

Ngayong alam na niya ang totoo,does it make any sense? Does it will make changes?

Mahalaga pa ba ang mga nakaraang iyon kahit alam niyang imposible ng mabalik ang dati nilang samahan.

Marami ng nagbago sa kanilang dalawa.

Marami na.

Maybe she needs to think about it first.

Maybe she needs space.

And time.

To decide.

Is she be able to start again with him,
Or just let the forgotten pasts be forgotten forever?

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3:00 am

She wore her favorite pink sweater and silently closed their gate not wanting to make any noise to wake the others.

She just wanted to run.

Run from the reality.

Because reality checks,hurts.

She didn't had gotten any sleep last night.

She just keep on thinking.

Thinking about him

But she was not really sure because she still doesn't remember anything from their pasts.

And she needs to find them first.

She wore her face masks and held tight her bag..

She tighten her grip as if the cold breeze directly hitting her skin making her shiver.

Pinara niya ang bus na napadaan tungo sa lugar kung saan niya hahanapin ang kanyang sarili.