Jikook Presents: Its Started With A Kiss

chapter 58: Dead leaves

JHOPE'S POV

It's been awhile since you left without saying goodbye.

Why?

What did I do for you to leave me?

I feel the emptiness without you.

I was cold,,I need your warmth.

My life lost its colors,because you took our rainbow of memories with you,all I can see is gray.

I lost my heart too,because you took it with you.

I lost my entire world because I lost you.

I can feel the Autumn now.

Patapos na ang taglamig pero pakiramdam ko,,manginginig ako sa sobrang lamig..Walang katapusang lamig,,na maaari kong ikamatay.

Here I am, walking today.

I see a single leaf hanging onto the branch.

That leaf? It could be me,Mark.

I'm holding on, for what? Please give me a reason to hold on because I'm losing my strength and I'm about to fall.

The other leaves were colorful but they were dry leaves nonetheless.

What's the use of their beauty when they already dead?

Autumn.

It used to be my favorite season.

Because it was the time when I met you.

Autumn hold a bittersweet feeling now; I love it but it's hurting me.

Just like you,Mark.

Baby ko,please come back.

I'm sorry kung may nagawa man akong hindi mo nagustuhan dahilan para umalis ka at iwan ako.

I'm sorry for annoying you,

I'm sorry for hurting you.

I need you.

Was it yesterday when we talked about our future?

That we'd create a family we can call our own ?

Imagining our little children running around our house.

I'm sorry,,I'm really not a romantic person but for you,,I could be,I'd try,if you comeback to me,which I'm hoping for.

Remember when we could stare at the skies for hours?
Crystal blue skies are lost inside dark storm clouds without you.

Don't you miss me too?

Mark,,I'm here still waiting.

At times I feel like I dont have to wait anymore,I've been hurting.

A part of me say,I have to let you go.

But there's this BiG part of me,telling me to hold on.

Why can't I give up on you yet?

I'm still holding on as I have been doing for you,,for us

I'm not letting you go.

I'll forever be waiting for the day you come back to me,Mark.

I only need you.

I'll be waiting.

Even if it takes forever.

I'll never fall..

Like those dead leaves..