Abduction [EDITING]

Chapter 17 Part~1

Memories~

Everything was wrong with what I was doing. I thought I'd loved Jason, I thought every second I'd spent worrying about his sorry ass meant something but God, was I wrong. I guess he did mean something to me at some point. I guess he even meant a lot to me at one point, but it's hard to admit to oneself it wasn't love. Scary even. When do you really know you're in love? I guess it's when you lose something do you realize it's value in your life. In that case, it couldn't have been love. Because my mind was not on him anymore. It was elsewhere. Somewhere it was hard to admit..

Somewhere it felt wrong to admit.

Darick snapped his fingers infront of my eyes and I recoiled backwards, as if someone woke me up from a very pleasent dream.

'Why do you look so mad? Geez, I won't snap you out of your daydream again, cut it out,'
I guess I had been glaring at him for too long. My expression softened and I picked up the sandwich wrapped elegantly in a tissue. My stomach growled in hunger seeing the delicious sandwich laid out on the sprawled out mattress where lied rest of our picnic basket. I was curious to find out who made this stuff. Darick didn't really look like the cooking type.

I moaned as I took a bite from the sandwich. The taste was heavenly. The clouds moved across the sky to hide the sun, casting a shadow in our direction. The sky was a tinge of orange-ish yellow and blue at this point.

'I wanted to ask you something,' I really didn't want to, but the words were out of my mouth before I realized what I'd said. I didn't need to dwell on that topic, not today of all days, but better to be just out with it and forget it later on as soon as possible right?

'Why so casual..out with it' came the expected reply. Okay, then.

'it's about jason,' I warned. I could see him tense up on his name and if I wasn't wrong..I thought I saw a hint of anger on his face but it vanished as soon as it'd appeared. I was probably imagining it..

'Go on,'

He expired. So did I.

'What'd you mean when you said he used me?' I finally asked. He was quiet for awhile before he answered.

'He's a player is all I meant..what else could I've meant?' I bit my lip and looked up at the sky again, abit disappointed the sun was setting. Had the day ended already?

'Jenna?' He snapped his fingers in front of my face again and I snapped out of my thoughts. 'jeez you've got to stop spacing out on me. It worries me sometimes,' I gave him a weak smile, not knowing what to reply to that.

'let's take a picture,' He got out his phone from the pocket and held it up so we both could fit in the picture. This was the closest we'd gotten since forever, come to think of it. I looked at his face briefly only to see those lips curl up into a perfect toothy smile. His eyes crinkled and the sun cast it's light on his face, highlighting his features even more. I hadn't even realized he'd taken a shot of me staring at him that way, now he probably thinks I'm a creep!

I hadn't even realized he'd already put his phone back in his pocket. Hadn't realized he'd gotten closer. Hadn't realized when we were kissing. It was like all of this was not real. Like it'd vanish in thin air and all I'd be left with would be an empty space beside me, and a beautiful scenery to look at. A thousand butterflies in my stomach. A spark that lit up when his lips touched mine. Adrenaline in my veins. I wanted more. I wanted to feel like this forever so I blurted what came to mind. I blurted what could mean the end of him. And me.

'I love you,'

And for the first time in my life, I knew the meaning of those words.