What If? {Louis Tomlinson Fan Fic}

Chapter 3 - By Now

-Roxy's POV-

"What the hell is he doing here?"

Is all I could say to myself. I was in the bathroom getting changed, luckily no one else is here.

I honestly thought I was over him, but every time I see him, I'm automatically depressed.

"Can't you see it Roxy? He's just another person who hurt you."

I said a loud. Like losing my dad wasn't enough. Now I even lost someone who could've been mine.. but wait.. he didn't like me. I remembered a quote I read on tumblr,

"If he wanted to be in your life, he would've been in it by now."

And he isn't so I'm no longer wasting my time on what I thought we could be.

I look at myself in the mirror and say to myself,

"He's too good for you Roxy, Fuck him. There's plenty of guys out there. He would have never treated you right anyways."

After those thoughts there came an inspirational quote along the way.

"He may look like your knight in shining armor, but will he treat you like your his princess?"

He probably wouldn't.

I splashed some water on my face and jogged to class so I wouldn't be late.

-Louis' POV-

I looked around for Roxy, she wasn't in any of the halls. This year was different, their lockers were far away from where mine was last year. I went downstairs and looked in the music room, there she was, eating a sandwhich all by herself next to a book which was silver glitter and has a big pink and purple R on the cover,

"Long time no see."

I joked around, she looked up at me and hid the shiny book behind her.

"I didn't mean to startle you."

"Nah, its ok, I get pretty scared easily. Wilver always sneaks up on me and scares me anyways."

She was hiding something, I could see it, but I couldn't put my finger on exactly what it was...

"How come you came today? Your sister's class is gone on a three day teepee trip?"

"Well, Matilda's gone, but Sarah is here."

"Oh yeah, I forgot that you had two sisters."

(authors note- Louis has only two sisters in this because he is based off of my crush, just a reminder.)

She joked to herself, I laughed along.

"So where's Sage?"

I asked her, hoping she wasn't here today,

"She didn't want to go on the teepee trip because she doesn't like the people in her class.. Long story. So she just stayed home. So I'm all alone for two days."

I was ecstatic to hear that because I wanted her all to myself for the rest of the time I was here,

"That's too bad.."

"It's not really. I can just keep myself busy in the bus with my cell."

I nodded my head. The book was peeking out of her back and I nodded towards it,

"Whats that you got behind your back?"

She looked behind her trying her best not to reveal the book,

"Uhm... its nothing.."

She said and looked at her sandwhich,

"Can I see it?"

I asked her trying to act all innocent (which I wasn't, I'm a very bad, bad boy)

"Uh... No, no you can't.."

I raised my eyebrows in question at her,

"Why not?"

"Because its none of your business, that's why!"

She said harshly, her words stung,

I tried to grab the book from her, she faught hard... but not hard enough because I got the book and opened it and I read out loud some words that she must of obviously wrote,

"If this feeling doesn't kill me, then these cuts will.."

I looked down at her wrists in shock, she grabbed the book from my hands and stormed out of the room.

Was this what she was hiding..?

Ok, who else is loving that Louis actually found out a really bad secret about Roxy? I was when I wrote this. Because let's say, I cut myself for attention, I wanted him to pay attention to me in any way, and that's how I dealt with it. I kind of wanted him to say something but he never did. Lots of other people did though. Stay strong lovelies xx