What If? {Louis Tomlinson Fan Fic}

Chapter 21 - Good Enough

Chapter 21

-Roxy's POV-

I couldn't take it anymore... I needed answers to the stupid questions blocking my thoughts. I needed to know why I'm not good enough. I couldn't help it. I knocked on the door and waited for Louis to come out, I saw him open the door and a shocked expression was on his face.

"Roxy, your back?"

He asked me surprised, he tried to hug me but I pushed him away,

"I need answers now."

I said as I pushed through him and inside the familiar apartment,

"Is Eleanor here?"

I asked hoping she wasn't,

"No she's at her parents until the weekend."

Good I don't have to deal with the bitch,

"Louis."

I said as we both sat down on the couch,

"Roxy..... Don't tell me..."

He said and I didn't understand what he was talking about... He grabbed my wrist and examined the freshly cut scars that were still bleeding.

"Why did you do this?"

"Why did you chose Eleanor over me?"

I asked him with tears in my eyes,

"It's a long story..."

"What am I not good enough for you still? God damn you Louis."

I spat out and looked down at my scars and rubbed my thumb across them,

"No Roxy it's-"

"Don't you fucking lie to me! I'm tired of everyone LYING to me!"

I screamed as the anger boiled inside of me,

"Roxy... I don't know how to say this. But I choose you."

I stopped for a second and looked up to his blue/red puffy eyes,

"No you don't. You proved it to everyone who you chose yesterday at the mall."

Louis looked down,

"Remember when you went on a date with Kendall and me and Eleanor..."

I nodded my head trying to get the picture of them... Out of my mind.

"Well.... I'm going to be a father...."

He said and my heart automatically shattered, the tears couldn't stop. They kept falling out of my eyes and I couldn't stop it.

"Congratulations."

I said trying to recover from my sobs,

"Roxy, I'm only with Eleanor because of that and she could ruin me. I would've chose you-"

"No Louis. Fuck you. Fuck me. FUCK EVERYBODY! I AM FUCKING DONE WITH YOU. YOU TORE ME APART DURING HIGH-SCHOOL AND NOW YOU ACTUALLY LIE TO ME AND HURT ME EVEN MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE COULD IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE UNIVERSE!"

I screamed as I paced around the room,

"YOU LET ME DOWN WHEN I NEEDED YOU. I ALWAYS THOUGHT TO MYSELF, WHAT IF I NEED YOU... WHAT IF I NEEDED LOUIS. WHAT IF HE WAS THERE FOR ME? You've proved where you stand. And that 'what if' just disappeared. I'm done with everything and everyone. See you in hell."

I said as I stormed out of his house. My world has completely fallen apart. I can't take this anymore.. I need a way out! I ran as fast as I could so he couldn't catch up to me... If my old gym teacher mr Book saw me right now. He would be proud...