Iloveyou more than Imissyou

Odd

Chapter 5

We arrived at the place more than hour after climbing giant formation of rocks. So beautiful as i've always said.

"Finally! Were here!" Sigaw ni Kuya Nel. Na nag eecho sa buong paligid.

May maliliit na anyo ng tubig kaming nadaanan na pwede naman paliguan. Pero mas tumulak pa kami paakyat at narating ang lugar na sinasabi nila. At tama. Kahit nakakapagod ang paglalakad worth it naman sa ganda at lamig ng tubig dito. Hindi ko pa ito napupuntahan dati. Doon lang kami sa baba kaya medyo lito pa ako kung saan kami nag swimming dati. Makikita mong may dalawang mag sin-taas na mini falls dito mga dalwang palapag ang taas ngunit mas malakas ang bagsak ng tubig sa gawing gitna at ang isa naman ay hanggang tuhod lang ang lalim at may mahihinang agos ng tubig. Malinaw at malamig ang tubig. Ang gaganda ng mga bato. Kitang kita mo ang iba't ibang kulay ng bato sa ilalim ng malinaw na tubig habang nasisikatan ng araw. Ang iba naman ay sa sobrang excited lumublob na sa tubig ngunit di naman lumangoy.

"Wooh! Ang lamig! Grabe!" Sabi naman ni Arvin. Akala ko di nagsasalita ang isang to dahil tahimik lang. Maputi ito at chinito may fit na pangangatawan. Masasabi kong gwapo din ngunit tahimik lang.

Inayos nila ang mga dalang gamit malapit sa pangpang ng ilog. Maliit lang ito kung titingnan sin-laki lang siguro ng isang kidney shape pool dito sa itaas. Naupo lang ako sa isang bato at pinagmasdan ang paligid dahil nakaramdam ako ng sobrang pagod at panginginig ng tuhod. Ganun din ang iba. Nag seselfie naman sina Marie at Laurence si Tris naman ay nag aayos ng sarili.

"Tulala ka dyan ah!" sabi ni kuya sabay wisik sakin ng tubig. Bumalik naman ako sa ulirat dahil sa lamig ng tubig na dumampi sakin.

"Kuya!" Sigaw ko sa gulat. Pinagtawanan naman ako nito at lumayo malapit sa maliit na kubo kung saan nandun ang mga gamit namin nag peace sign at tumawa. Hays! Baliw talaga!

"Are you okay Zia?" Biglang sabi ni James na di ko alam ay nasa harap ko na pala.

"Yes i'm fine" sabi ko na hindi sya tiningnan. Naka yuko lang ako dahil hindi ko sya kaya makita dahil pakiramdam ko pulang pula na ako kahit di ako kaputian pag naalala ko ang ginawa nyang pag halik sakin. Argh!

Umupo ito sa harap ko habang naka tukod ang isang tuhod sa bato at naka bend ang isang binti. Nagulat ako ng hawakan nito ang binti ko at ipinatong sa kanya. Dahan dahan nya itong inunat at minasahe. Aangal pa sana ako pero nasarapan ako sa paraan ng paghilot nya sa binti ko. It relax me.

Di ko naman sya tiningnan dahil naiilang talaga ako. Para akong sinisilaban and at the same time my chest keep pounding abnormally. He starring at me i know that's why i can't look at him. I just bow my head and breath slowly.

"James?" Biglang sabi ni Gaby. Para naman akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig ng lumapit ito. I feel like a mistress who caught off guard by the legal wife. But why? I did not do anything wrong right? In fact si James ang lumapit. I did not told him to do so. But it feels not. Nakakalakad na ulit si Gaby at may pag aalala sa kanyang mukha ng nakatingin ito kay James.

"Dad call me he's reminding me to tell you about dinner later" sabi nito na may seryosong tinig at bahagyang tumingin sakin. Tiningnan ko din ito at parang may pagbabanta sa titig nito sakin na hindi maipaliwanag. Umiwas agad ito at ibinaling ang mga mata sa mga binti ko na patuloy na minamasahe ni James.

"I'll talk to him later" sabi nito kay Gaby.

Meet the family? I don't care. It's been a day that i knew him. Yes admit it Zia Cornilla you have a crush with him. Possible naman na ma attract ka diba? It's normal. It's a simple attraction by the way. It's infatuation. Usually sa adolescent. Yeah yun yon! Love at first sight? I don't believe it. Di mo agad mamahalin ang isang taong nakita mo pa lang ng ilang oras. Love should have deeper understanding. Hindi yun mahal mo agad! Agad?

"Okay. Diretso na tayo dun mamaya? Dun ka na mag bihis may damit ka naman dun e." Sabat pa ni Gaby. What da'eff?! Bakit sya may damit dun? Are they sleeping together? Ou nga pala! She's his girlfriend! And me? I am nothing! Why do i have to give meaning for everything? He's a stranger! Stranger who kiss me and tell me damn sweet and cheesy things! You're not like this Zia! Wake up! It's nothing!

You grow in the city. You should know more. Things now are not like before. Adolescence now a days deal with a pre-marital sex. It's normal. Acquiring western attitude. Virginity is a virtue. But let's face the reality that it is not a big deal if you are a virgin or not and more than that it is not the basis of your moral as a person. I didn't say that virginity is not important but we shouldn't judge a person especially a woman because she was already penetrated. We are full of judgemental people. It sucks big time.

Mabilis kong tinanggal ang mga binti ko sa kanya at tumayo. The realization hit me. Bakit ako maapektohan sa isang lalaking ngayon ko lang nakilala? Iniisip nya ba na dahil laking syudad ako ay katulad na ako ng ibang babae? Yes i'm not demure! But i'm still a virgin. I've been a party animal sometimes but i know my limits. He doesn't have the right to degrade me even if he didn't said. And i don't know what's running inside his mind. I'm not like the others. I'm unique. Every person is unique that's why we have out own identity. I am Zia Cornilla Mervalle and no one can step on me.

"Thanks for massaged. I'm fine. It's not your obligation but i appreciate it. I didn't told you to do so but still" i said to James as a matter of fact while looking at him and starring at his gray eyes intently. Now i can see that he had a pair of gray eyes. I think he had a foreign blood. Confusion starting to plaster in his face like his bothered to something i don't know.

"By the way, I'm Gabriella Cojuangco. Daughter of Atty. Cojuanco. You are?" Singit nito at hinarap ko naman. Oh he's the only daughter of Councelor Nita. They are famous here. Tumingin sya ng kakaiba. Parang sinasabi nya sakin na back off! In an irritated tone. I feel it coz i'm a girl too. The nerve of this girl! At the back of her angelic beauty there is a preditor. You didn't know how bitch i am! You didn't know me!

"Zia Cornilla Mervalles" i said while smilling in a sweet way i could ever had. Ang plastic mo Zia. Witch!

"Okay. finally i met you. I've heard a lot of things about Ma'am Lyn's niece." sabi nito na parang umiwas maging sarcastic pero halata naman.

"Oh really? I'm flattered. I didn't know that i'm a quiet famous here for you to hear a lot of things about me." My tita Lyn is a teacher. I said while raising my eyebrow.

"So James seems close to you as early huh?" There! Here we go. Bitch on Zia! Smile.

"Uhm? Not really? I've met him this morning. Maybe he's too nice to accommodate us?" Me!

"Oh! Yeah! James is really a nice guy. He's always like that, kaya nga madaming babae ang umaaligid sa kanya" sabi nito na parang may kahulugan habang nakatingin ng diretso sakin. Hindi ko hilig ang makipag plastikan. Orocan person sucks the hell out of me! Patola ako witch! Sayang puti mo.

"I think so? That's why you boundering him carefully? Ingat ka. Remember kapag wala ang pusa nag lalaro ang daga." I said while hiding my laugh! Coz her angelic face seems like turning tomato after i said that. Hang on Bitch!

"I keep that in mind Zia i'm not bothered coz i'm always with him." trying to hide her anger. He hold James arm trying to calm her self and giving me a signal that he's mine. And my brow arc while smiling. Ouch!

Wala na! Ou nga naman. I admit i'm attracted to him pero madami pang lalaki sa mundo. Bakit ako makikipag agawan sa kanya. Edi sa kanya na. Inaagaw ko ba? I don't deserve to be a second option. I should be priorities. I deserve the best. My parents treat me like a princess. I deserve everything. Hindi ko kailagan makihati. Panandalian lang ako dito at babalik din ako sa Bulacan. So why would i have to waste my time thinking some trash? I don't go down to her level. I keep smiling but my eyes betrayed me. Damn it!

"You have a lucky girl James" i said while trying to calm my nerves. But before i turn back to them to end this freakin conversation. James utter a word.

"I don't have a girlfriend. I told you" sabi nito na walang ka gatul gatol sa harap ni Gaby na ngayon ay parang nasilihan ang mukha.

Once again. He never failed to make my heart pound. Before i notice that everybody was looking at us like watching some drama series. I just turn around and walk leaving them from behind. Bahala kayo dyan!

And suddenly i feel like heaven gives me a thousand reasons to smile. Victory!