Don't be Chicken (on hold)

Twenty one; Theres a lot you don't know

The next morning I woke up to Dusty puking her guts out - something was completely different about her after that party and I couldn't help but wonder why.

I found her in the bathroom, gripping the sides of the toilet while making furious sobbing noises, when she glanced up at me I realized how upset she truly was. Her eyes were bloodshot and that morning I was finally hit with the realization that Dusty wasn't just some mean girl people always assumed she was; She had feelings, and she was a real person.

Suddenly, all at once I felt bad for everything mean I've said about her. But I knew I couldn't take it back now,

"Karman." She said in-between sobs. "I - I need help" and then she completely broke down that morning. I silently held her, praying that she would be alright because at this point I couldn't tell. Dusty didn't say anything more as her tears landed on my shoulder silently. It all happened in the moment and before I knew it she was wiping her eyes - trying to dry her tears.

She was completely different than when I first meant her this summer, she looked exhausted. So I calmed her down slowly and opened the sheets for her to crawl under. She needed the sleep and even I could tell judging from the bags under her eyes.  She rested her head down on the pillow, and then in a small tiny whisper, she spoke.

               "Karman, I'm- I'm so sorry for everything" She stuttered - and almost instantly my heart grew like the Grinches on Christmas morning. Her voice was so soft I didn't even hesitate but to answer back with kindness,

                 "It's okay Dusty, get some sleep" I said, and I shut off the light and closed the door behind me with a sense of pride. Dusty deserved to be happy, everyone does.

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I trudged down the flight of stairs like I normally do in the mornings, breakfast was already sat out on the table and people were already starting their chores. The whole room was mildly loud and full of ruckus, but I was mainly interested in getting some sausage and bacon to eat.

That's when I noticed Sally and Evelyn sitting at the table, eating along as well. For some reason, those two have been coming over a lot more often than normal, maybe it was because I was finally getting used to their visits.

Also as normal, Sally brought cookies that were blueberry flavored and a small cake as well. I'm not sure why, but she's one of those woman who likes to bake every single day. Oh well, I didn't argue.

After we ate Grandma and Sally went to sit on the front porch like every time, and Evelyn and I went up to my room. Evelyn was actually cool, despise that fact that she has a unreasonably large crush on Noah. Danni and I used to always say that a guy would never come between us - and in a way I hope it can be like that with Evelyn too.

Since I've came to Arizona I was very desperate for a friend because Dusty wasn't a very good one, and now that I had Evelyn I didn't want to lose it - but as soon as she spoke I knew there was a possible chance that it would end soon.

"I'm having a party at my house tomorrow night, wanna come?" She asked- and here I was, faced with a strong decision to make again. I was determined to make the right one, because I was definitely not in the mood for more beer and drunk people.

"Sorry, but I'm not really the party-type" I said honestly. Evelyn cringed, her forehead wrinkled up.

            "Come on, it's not like I'm throwing a huge party - only my closer friends. And besides, I'm not even supplying alcohol" Evelyn said with a pleading look on her face. I was about to say no again, but maybe after she said something I was more persuaded.

"My mom is going away for a couple days and I really want to have some fun. Maybe you could ask Noah if he'd want to come?" Evelyn asked. My first instinct was to say no, because I didn't want a thousand girls to go crazy over him.  But as I thought on it more I realized that if I was going to go to this party, I might as well take Noah along. 

Evelyn started rummaging through my closet, but she seemed so into it I didn't have the guts to stop her.  Her hands clasped around a shopping bag that I long forgot about since that shopping trip. Evelyn's grin turned into a full blown smirk.

"Wear these" Evelyn said while holding up the underwear set I completely shoved in my closet. I cringed and snatched them out of her hand.

"No, I am not wearing those" I said harshly. Evelyn frowned.

"I'm wearing my yellow set - that is if Noah goes anyway" Evelyn said and here I felt a pain of jealousy seep into my heart. Why did every girl want to sleep with him?? It was overly annoying and I just wanted them to go away.

"Anyway, you should atleast wear that white gold dress you got. Remember??" Evelyn said, and then I recalled where I put it. I wish I wore it during my date with Noah, but somehow I completely forget about its residence in my closet.

                 "Fine, I'll wear that" I said with defeat.  Evelyn grinned and started walking out of my bedroom.

"Oh and don't forget to ask Noah If he wants to come!" She said with a small wink - and then she left and I was remained with the echo of the door as it slammed shut.

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"Noah, why don't you want to go?" I asked while placing my hands on my hips. Noah mimicked me and let out a puff of air - his eyes were full of frustration.

"Don't you remember last time you went to a party?" He asked, but the result of that party only happened because of Dusty and Dusty wasn't going to this party. This party was supposed to be different- no drinks and not a lot of people. That's what Evelyn said and I generally believed her. Noah rubbed his greasy hands together and resumed to his work in the smelly barn.

"I can't change your mind, can I." Noah said almost as if he were accepting defeat. I grinned and looked into his eyes that had long-since calmed down. No, I thought.

"Noah, please come" I said. No matter how much Evelyn wanted Noah to come - I didn't care because I knew Noah wouldn't do that to me. I'm sorry, but Evelyn wasn't getting any of him tomorrow or ever - I should say. I guess that's me being selfish, but it's really not.

"Fine. Okay, I'll go but if I decide to leave then you're coming too. Got it?" Noah asked with a look of sincerity. I nodded my head.

"Also, you stick by me at all times. I know how greedy guys can be at parties - especially with girls like you" Noah said roughly so he could get his point across. Inside I was burning up with excitement- Noah's overprotectivness was glorifying unlike Carson's and I think that was because I actually liked Noah.

                 "What do you mean? Girls like me" I said while processing his words over again. Noah chuckled - his eyes full of adventure.

                "Girls that are gorgeous" Noah clarified with a simple smirk that made my heart go wild.

That's when I noticed how much Noah doesn't know about me - about Carson. There's so many questions he must have, yet he never asks them. There's so much he doesn't know, yet I don't have the guts to tell him.

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