You know, sometimes I just can not understand what I did wrong.
I did everything for you.
I was so sure of you.
So what did I do to make you not sure of me anymore?
I loved you,
I cared for you,
I always put your needs first.
Oh god, I was so crazy about you.
I did my best to be everything you ever wanted.
Or ever could want.
I was just so in love with you,
I couldn't understand what I could have done
that would make you not love me anymore.
God, all I wanted was for you to love me.
And it's days like today,
That the feelings of unrequited love
Are hitting me right
In the middle of the chest.
I can't fucking breathe on days like today.
I don't want to breathe anymore knowing you don't love me like you used to.
And that fucking sucks, okay?
I still do everything I can to make sure you're okay.
I still hold you in the highest regards.
But sometimes, just sometimes,
All I fucking need is just for you to tell me you love me.
You tell me that I mean a lot to you,
Well you would mean a lot to me too if I came to your house once a week,
For a bit of fun,
When I have no one else
That would be okay with that.
Not saying that you don't mean a lot to me.
You mean more to me than anyone else I've ever encountered.
But sometimes, I would rather you put me before your ego.
Though I don't expect it, it would be nice, you know?
6/25/16
YOU ARE READING
From My Mind To Your Pages
PoetryI have to get the words out of my head sometimes. This is a completed work of 9 years worth of writing about the boy I was in love with. 9 years of expressing my emotions in written form. 9 years of him reading every word and treating me like shit a...
