From My Mind To Your Pages

You know.

You know, sometimes I just can not understand what I did wrong.

I did everything for you.
I was so sure of you.

So what did I do to make you not sure of me anymore?

I loved you,
I cared for you,
I always put your needs first.

Oh god, I was so crazy about you.

I did my best to be everything you ever wanted.
Or ever could want.

I was just so in love with you,
I couldn't understand what I could have done
that would make you not love me anymore.

God, all I wanted was for you to love me.

And it's days like today,
That the feelings of unrequited love
Are hitting me right
In the middle of the chest.

I can't fucking breathe on days like today.

I don't want to breathe anymore knowing you don't love me like you used to.

And that fucking sucks, okay?

I still do everything I can to make sure you're okay.

I still hold you in the highest regards.

But sometimes, just sometimes,
All I fucking need is just for you to tell me you love me.

You tell me that I mean a lot to you,
Well you would mean a lot to me too if I came to your house once a week,
For a bit of fun,
When I have no one else
That would be okay with that.

Not saying that you don't mean a lot to me.
You mean more to me than anyone else I've ever encountered.

But sometimes, I would rather you put me before your ego.

Though I don't expect it, it would be nice, you know?

6/25/16