I sat alone at school today.
Not really a big deal.
I missed you at school today.
That was slightly worse.
It's not the same
When you're not around.
I don't like
Your absence.
I go to school,
I sit through class.
I don't smile as much,
And I surely don't laugh.
High school is much more serious.
Not much fun,
No more inside jokes,
Just autopilot.
That's what it feels like.
Autopilot through the day.
Numb, emotionless, almost.
And I'm only in the second week.
It's not just you I miss,
Though you were a highlight,
It's everyone.
All of my friends.
I'm not happy you're gone,
But I'm still proud of you.
Graduated, moving ahead.
You guys made it through.
Lunch isn't the same.
It's mostly quiet.
Highly less insane,
And awkward.
Different people sit at the table.
Talking and laughing around me.
I just sit there.
It doesn't feel right anymore.
School isn't the same.
I've never felt so alone,
And yet I don't feel the need,
To make new friends.
I don't need new friends,
I don't need new memories.
Because none will be the same,
None will be with you.
I sit alone at lunch,
Even with people surrounding me.
I sit alone,
Because none of them are you.
I sit alone in class, too.
Improv isn't the same.
I think Mr.R noticed too.
I think I miss you.
Nothing is the same.
High school sucks.
You're all gone,
And I'm just stuck.
So I've been pretty bummed.
I don't know what to say.
I just sit alone,
And trudge through the day.
9/12/16
YOU ARE READING
From My Mind To Your Pages
PoetryI have to get the words out of my head sometimes. This is a completed work of 9 years worth of writing about the boy I was in love with. 9 years of expressing my emotions in written form. 9 years of him reading every word and treating me like shit a...
