From My Mind To Your Pages

I don't have the courage to say this to your face.

I can't.
I'm so so sorry.
But I can't do it anymore.

I am so in love with you, and I don't have the courage to say this to you, directly to you.

I love you so much, my hunter. So so much.

But it hurts.
It hurts so much.

I heard from a friend that you have a girl at college.
And that hurts.

But I'm so happy that you are happy.

I hate that it's not me.
I hate it's not me making you happy like she is.

But you know what?

That's okay. Because you're happy.

And I'm going to let you be happy.
I'm not going to get in your way of that anymore.
I love you so so much.

But I can't keep hurting myself.

If you want to talk, then you message me first.
You come see me first.

I can't keep following you around like a puppy.

I feel pathetic.

I love you more than I love myself, and I'm not going anywhere,
But it hurts so much.

I hope she can make you happy,
I hope she values my leather cladded teddy bear as much as I do.

I hope in two years time, you keep your word.
Cause I still have my heart set on you.
I want to grow old with you,
You're my best friend.

I love you, my hunter.
But I can't keep doing this.
I can't keep hurting myself,
Not over you, not over this.

I can't keep breaking my own heart.

If you need me, you know how to find me.
You know how to get a hold of me.

But I can't keep doing this...

01/08/17
I'm so sorry..