The woods

Part 13

I half expect him to pull away and for me to be humiliated on TV so I keep it short.
We stay there, opposite eachother.
I look up into his eyes and they pull me in yet again.
'I'm so-'
He kisses me back to shut me up.
'Don't be.' He smiles.
We are broken out of our moment by the food crashing onto the muddy floor.
My hands are released by his and he smiles before helping Raf get the food out and cook it.
*****
'Well I never thought I would enjoy Cows arse.' Dom says.
I laugh and I catch Ollie's eye.
He walks over to me with a blanket and wraps it around me.
'Thanks.' I smile. I wish he stayed next to me though, not pass Cara a blanket - I know he meant nothing by it but I feel jealous.
I shake it off before my thought is confirmed - he meant nothing by it obviously as he came back over to me with another blanket for himself.
Dom snuggles into the other side of me and I feel for once in my life loved.
Cara and Raf are in their own world on his hammock.
I catch Dom's eye and signal 'leave us' to him.
He must have caught on as he rolls his eyes and lays down on his hammock.
'About earlier-' I start.
'Yeah.. What happened?' He asks.
I am slightly confused by what he means.
'We kissed, remember?' I ask confused.
He laughs. 'Sorry I said that wrong - why did we do it?'
I am once again confused.
'Because we wanted to?' I question.
'I guess.' He smiles.
'So what does this mean?' I reply.
'I'm.. I'm not sure..'
'You know what don't worry.' I frown before chucking the blanket over his arm and running out of the camp.
'No Zosia what I meant was-' I cut his voice out and carried on running into the cold darkness of the forest by myself - and the camera crew.
I wait out in the woods for 10 minutes.
I stupidly expect Ollie to run after me.
He doesn't.
Not even Dom comes.
I slope down onto a tree and cry.
And cry.
And cry.
Until I fall asleep.