As little girls we are told our princes will come. That we would be Beautiful,Smart and Kind. That we would have a Happily Ever After. But all of a sudden you're 16 crying at the top of your lungs with a box of tissues, so young yet so full of hate...
My vision was blurry, and I was fading in and out of consciousness. My hands were cold as I clamped on the blanket.
"Push"!!!
I could hear voices telling me to push, but I couldn't focus. Sweat was everywhere and it felt as if my lungs were collapsing.
"Lacie push"!!
I pushed with all my might.
Faint baby cry's
I looked at the beautiful baby boy and I smiled. My eyes fluttered closed and I drifted to unconsciousness.
Beep beep beep..
I wake up to faint low beeps, I open my eyes and awaken in a white hospital room. On my left side my grandma is nestled on an armchair lightly snoring. At the far end of the room, I find Damon and Jacob slumped into each other snoring as well. I sit up and rub my eyes, crust has accumulated in the corners. The door opens with a small shove and a petite nurse walks in.
"Good morning"! She beams.
"Ah... Good morning"...
"You've been passed out for a while, first baby?"
"Um.. yeah".
She smiles. "Don't worry you will be a good mommy, you had a beautiful healthy baby boy". She points over to the baby who is sound asleep.
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I soon realize that the beeping in the room wasn't from my bed, it was for the baby. In shock I shift around to see that my machine is on, but no heart beat is detected. Isn't the nurse noticing??
The nurse heads over to me and checks my vitals.
"Future mommy you're okay now and stable, Ill be right back, i'll get you something to eat".
When she walks out, I try to get out of bed. What if she's going to tell someone that I have no pulse. In horror, I go over to my baby and carry him gently in my arms.
"Lacie... what are you doing honey"?
My grandmother has woken up in confusion.
"Grandma there are going to take my baby away, I have no pulse they know!!"
She scrambles out of her seat and takes the baby. The baby makes a noise as my grandma puts him down.
"Lacie listen.. Damon compelled the nurse and the doctors, everything is okay".
My eyes widen. "Really"!
"Yes".
I sit back on the bed in relief. So many emotions were mixing inside me. These past 8 months have been hard, but I made it.. Alone, just like I wanted to. No, Jacob or Damon till now.
