"Akaashi?"
I wasn't annoyed anymore by the way Bokuto called my name. How could I be, when Bokuto was standing at his doorstep with a suitcase and a warm, sad smile, ready to say goodbye?
I couldn't even open my mouth to say anything, for fear of tears falling to the ground. I just nodded in response and went to give him a huge hug.
God, does he even understand how much I'll miss him?
Practice will be so quiet without him-- quiet and eerie.
Who can we count on to cheer us up with a smile when our team is down in the dumps? I can't do that-- my smile is terrible.
There won't be enough calls and texts at three am-- he'll be studying. There won't be enough sleepovers, and movies with popcorn, there won't be enough hugs to warm up my heart, and there won't be enough of him period.
Does he understand how much I fear he'll find a new, much better, much more brilliant setter and friend, and I'll be alone again?
Tears started falling, and Bokuto just held him closer, probably weeping too.
But Bokuto recovers so quickly-- he has Kuroo and all his other friends to cheer him up, but I just have me. It's always been pathetic how bad I was at making friends.
But Bokuto came into my life, and made me feel so special and needed and trusted, and now he's just going to leave me here.
"I promise I'll-- I'll visit, please don't cry, I'm going to--"
We both start sobbing like maniacs at the same time, and I almost laugh at the synchronization. The laugh just turns to an ugly croak.
"Just... don't forget about me, okay?" I look up at him, and he gives me a shaky smile too. "How could I ever forget you?"
As he's walking away, I feel everything but reassured.
He doesn't understand the fact that he shines so bright, and I'm just a shadow. Shadows will go unnoticed and forgotten, just like me.
