Miracles in December (kaisoo Mpreg)

Chapter Forty Two

Chapter Forty Two:

(Miracles in December)

May 31st, Tuesday (month seven)

Lay's POV:

My hands are sweaty with nervousness. I can't stop biting my lip. I guess that you could feel the aurora between us go awkward, something that had never been with us.

I had always been comfortable with him but now all I felt was strangeness. It felt like we were strangers; forget that we were once best friends.

But I can't. He was and is my best friend. Everyday I think of him. I think of Baekhyun and Kyungsoo. My biggest regret is going after Suho after committing one of the things that made so hateful towards myself.

Was grades so much more important than my best friend? Jealously and greed made me separate from the things I love.

Ever since, my days have been sad and dreadful. I'm so lonely that I cry myself to sleep.

It feels like I have no one. Suho was filled with greed, so much that I was surprised at the beginning.

Jin-Hyuk filled idealistic ideas of being the perfect teenagers into him. Things that were impossible to do. Suho immediately obeyed him, making himself believe those ideas. The love that he had for us was turn into hate.

His one and only friend was Jin-Hyuk. And, well, me until now. It took me a long time to work up the courage to apologize to Xiumin and Kyungsoo and Baekhyun. Pride was the only thing from preventing me from doing so.

Fuck the pride. I just want my friends back even if it's different. Everything is different now. I lost their trust and now I'm going to do everything I can to win them back.

Swallowing the knot that was already forming on my throat, I sit in which I believe is Kyungsoo and Kai's bed. I didn't even look to which way I was going. And apparently I, I mean we, stumble across their bedroom.

I remove a pillow from my butt and remove the sweat from my forehead with the back of my hand. I wish I wasn't sweating so much.

Xiumin stands right in front of me. My head leans back so that I am looking up to him and he is looking down on me. His face was neutral, no emotion whatsoever. Well, until he slapped me across the face.

I react and turn my face to the side, my hand going to my cheek.

"How dare you leave me? I spend nights upon nights crying for you!" He yells with so much fury.

I say nothing. I feel so bad for doing this to him. No explanation will give me justice for what I did. The only thing that will help is him getting the anger out. The anger that he feels for me.

"Do you not love me anymore? Did all those nights spend together meant nothing to you?"

I stand up, anger boiling inside of me. "Of course I love you. Xiumin, I will always be your best friend. There hasn't been a day that I don't think of you. Please accept me back. If I don't have you, my life is meaningless. With who am I going to talk about life and...," I sniff, a tear rolling down my cheek. "Will you?"

"Of course I will. I will always accept you back as my best friend. You know all my secrets." We both laugh through our tears.

"I miss you so much." I say, my mouth muffled from being pressed against his neck.

He presses his hand in my neck, telling me that he misses me too. We stay like this for a while. I press his body into mine in fear that if I do he'll slip away and leave me. I don't want to fuck this up anymore. Today has been one of the best days that has happened in a long time.