moan ♡ d.l [#wattys2016]

twenty-six

2 weeks later

i took a sip of my coffee as i rubbed my eyes. i was tired and i was wearing same clothes for a week, since i demanded jovana to go home and shower. jovana and i have been here for harley everyday.

harley is about a week in coma. we've been trying to talk to her, to wake her up, but nothing has helped. the doctors told me one thing that i have to keep from jovana and it's hard.

if harley doesn't wake up in a month- so two weeks from now- she will die. they will stop her breathing and she will just be buried under ground and left there.

i never slept, i've always stayed awake to hear harley's heavy breathing. i tried talking to her, i squeezed her hands, tickled but nothing worked.

some nights i just cry and think, what could have gone wrong in the surgery. yes she had a surgery before the coma.

they left her sleeping, but it wasn't a good idea. something got into harley's systome and they can't get it out. she's only turning paler and paler and they say it's not good.

i don't want a kid ever again.

i returned back into her room, seeing her in the same exact position as i left her and first seen her. i took a bite of the tortilla and sat down on the couch.

i scrolled through instagram and every-now-and-then i would watch her. i was watching a pizza video until someone knocked on the door and it was amira.

"hey babe" she whispered and smiled. i put the tortilla back on the paper plate and the coffee mug beside me. i stood up and went in for a hug.

i tightened my grip around her small body until i realized how hard my grip was. "sorry, i-i wasn't th-thin-" my stuttering got cut off from her familiar, passionate, gentle kiss.

i cupped her face- gently this time- and kissed her back the same way. i was about slip my tongue in her mouth and explore it, but the door opened again.

jovana stood there with teary eyes and anger towards me. amira moved slightly leaving me stand in front of her. "so our daughter is going to die and you don't care to tell me?" she asked.

i was left speechless so i started to stutter, again. "stop jay. i-" she started crying hard.

i went in for a hug, but she tried to push me away. i kept my position steady and she calmed down. she put her head on my chest and cried silently.

i kissed her head gently and rubbed her back. amira gave me a questionable look and i gave her a 'i'll tell you later' look. she nodded her head and sat down on the couch.

"i really can't do this jay" she shivered. i rubbed her back and shushed her.

"no jovana. we are in this together jo, we can do this together" i grabbed her hand and squeezed it.

"i'm sorry," she pulled away and sat next to amira, "i ruined your wedding" she cried.

amira took her into her arms and tried to calm her. to be honest amira had been a wreck all these days. "don't blame yourself" amira whispered.

jovana nodded and made herself comfortable. she hasn't slept all week, you can see it from the bags under her eyes. she slowly started to fall in a deep sleep, i was right.

amira moved slowly and walked to me. i was watching harley and thinking of stuff. "you need a distraction" she whispered due to a sleeping alive person. i can't say harley is alive, she's almost dead.

"i want her to wake up" i whispered as i swang my shoulder around her. i brung her closer to me and kissed her head.

"why i did those actions to jovana, was to calm her down. i remember when she found out she was pregnant..."

flashback

i got home with my grocery bag since a goofball desided not to wake up when i needed her. i stepped inside and saw her sitting on the stairs.

"jo? are you okay?" i asked as i let the bag on the ground and sat next to her. she shook her head and let the tears fall.

"d-did you use a condom last night?" she stuttered.

now that i think about it... fuck. "n-n... no?"

"i'm pregnant" she sobbed. i widened my eyes and used my method. hug her, bring her closer to my warmer body, let her head on my chest, kiss her head every-now-and-then and stroke her back.

flashback over

"i had a method. 1, hug her. 2, bring her closer to my warmer body. 3, let her head on my chest. 4, kiss her head every-now-and-then and 5, stroke her back. she always had fights with her parents which lead to crying for hours"

i chuckled as i glanced at a sleeping jo. "i came up with that and now i always have it in my mind when a girl cries" i told amira.

"you did that to me" she smiled. i nodded and smiled shortly remembering when i did it to her.

"and it magically helped" she giggled.

i chuckled as i kissed harley's hand.

"i just wish she wakes up and doesn't die"

i cried writing this and idekw... (i dont even know why)

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