moan ♡ d.l [#wattys2016]

nine

jovana

i wasn't myself for 1 whole week. anjali and kehlani are in the studio always and i am here with my broken heart.

everyone has tried to talk to me, but i wasn't feeling their talk. i have ignored everything, every text message, call and notification.

i haven't been in social media for 1 week. i haven't been active, i haven't eaten. i showered yesterday, because mia begged me to.

from all the crying at nights, my cheeks are with black tear stains of the mascara. everyone has tried to cheer me up, it didn't really work.

nothing, nothing really worked.

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"i have something to announce mi hija!" my mom came exitedly in my room.

i was currently under the covers rolling my eyes. i peeked my head seeing her face of exitement.

"i'm going to amsterdam with you father, daniel and peter!" she said happily.

i nodded my head not even caring. "you are not saying a word?" she asked.

i shook my head laying back down. i felt the bed dip when she sat next to where i was laying. "i know its hard mi hija" she took my hand in hers rubbing it slowly.

"whoever is this derek luh, lost the beautifullest and happiest spark in the world"

- (a/n; meanwhile)

derek

"i fucking miss her bro!" i yelled into the phone punching the wall infront of me.

"derek! calm the fuck down!" he said loudly in the phone.

"NATE! I FUCKING CANNOT CALM DOWN! I LOST HER! FUCK!" i shouted hitting the wall repeadly feeling the pain.

my knuckels were bloody, but i let them.

"i'm coming over" he hung up leaving me in the room without any voice other than my panting.

i slid down, my back against the wall. i stomped my foot against the floor trying to reveal the anger.

i was sitting criss cross thinking about her.

the love of my life.

(a/n; short chapter, so the next gonna be long. i love yall all. vote comment share (: bye)

-aalyah