In a Relationship with Dashed (Completed)

C13: Dashed's Voice.

13: Dashed's Voice

"I like him for you, sweetie! He's such a well-bred man, decent, respectful, generous, serene.. and of course, the most important part... ang pogi n'ya!" Mommy narrated in excitement.

I looked at her facial expression on my laptop screen. She sounded like a teenager screeching about her crush. Ni hindi na ako makapagsalita dahil tuloy-tuloy siya sa mga kwento niya.

"Me and your Dad already had a video chat with him kaninang madaling araw! In-add n'ya kasi ako sa Facebook, and afterward, he promptly asked for a video call! So dahil nakita kong pogi siya, at pogi talaga siya, I answered it without any cue of hesitance!" then she giggled for the nth time.

I'm trying so hard to hide my discomfort simula pa kaninang magka-usap kami. I hate this. I really hate hiding things, especially from my family.

I hate lying, and I don't want to become a liar myself. In my entire life, ngayon pa lang ako may itinago sa Mommy ko. This would be fast naman siguro, right? Masasabi ko rin sa kanila ang totoo when the right time comes.

God, Bronywn. You just created a problem for yourself. Bakit ka pa kasi pumayag na magpanggap bilang fake girlfriend ni Dashed when, in reality, libre-libre ka namang tumanggi?

Look at your situation now. Sino'ng nahihirapan?

Edi ikaw din.

"What have you talked about, My?" I asked, forcing my lips to form a timid smile.

"It's a secret, sweetie..." she smiled earnestly, and I pouted. Why can't she tell me? Unfair. "Anyway, approved na approved na s'ya sa mga hermano mo. As well as sa akin at sa Dad mo. Just know your limitations, okay? Hope we can meet him in person soon and have a family dinner!"

"You won't really tell me, My?" I prodded with my pleading eyes, pinagdikit ko pa ang mga palad ko to appeal to her weakness.

But apparently, it didn't work. "I'm afraid you really can't, sweetie," she shook her head and glanced at her watch. And I knew what was coming next. "It's already time... You need your beauty rest. Talk to you some other day, alright? Be good all the time, querida hija. We miss you, and we love you so much!"

I smiled. "Goodnight, My. Te quiero también." and she turned off the cam while I closed my laptop.

Humiga ako sa queen-size bed ko and started to drown myself in wayward thoughts. Gusto ko sanang i-check ang Facebook account ko bago matulog but I was too scared to see negative comments. Mahina kasi 'yong self-confidence ko, sa totoo lang. Pero ano pa nga bang magagawa ko?

I entered into this, so I shall finish it too.

I was already on the verge of closing my eyes when my phone rang continuously. Geez. Napaka-wrong timing naman!

Tumayo ako at kinuha iyon sa itaas ng bedside table.

Dashed's Calling...

Damn. When I saw his name on the screen, agad na nagising ang diwa ko. I answered it and unconsciously checked my wall clock. It's already past eleven, and yet, he's still calling me.

"Did I disturb your sleep?" I heard him say in his husky voice.

Napapikit ako dahil sa niyang iyon. Gentleness was plastered in every word he spoke, and I couldn't help but smile lightly.

"Uh, hindi naman," tipid kong sagot atsaka umupo sa kama. Naka-todo naman 'yong aircon but why did it still feel so warm? "Why did you call? It's late..." I bit my lip. Darn it. I almost forgot that I am talking to my boyfriend right now.

"I just want to hear your voice..." nang sinabi n'ya iyon ay parang may narinig akong kaluskos at tawanan mula sa kanyang linya.

"M-May kasama ka ba?"

"Huh?" he sounded startled. "Ah, ano... si Dashíon. Nandito sa kwarto ko, nanghihiram ng gamit."

I nodded in response to his answer. But I couldn't deny that my cheeks were actually burning for some reason. "Dashed..." I called his name.

"Hmm?"

"Matagal pa ba 'to?"

"Alin?"

"Yung pagpapanggap natin... Nakokonsensya na kasi ako." pag-amin ko sakanya.

There was a stretch of silence between our lines. Akala ko nga ay namatay na 'yong tawag n'ya pero bigla s'yang nagsalita. But it was unrelated sa naging tanong ko sa kanya.

"Do you want me to sing a song for you?"

Nabigla ako sa tanong n'ya at hindi agad ako nakapagsalita.

Ano ba kasing klaseng tanong 'yon? Talaga bang ganito s'ya sa mga nagiging girlfriend n'ya noon? Teegan hasn't mentioned this yet. S'ya lang naman kasi iyong source ko tungkol sa mga CDG Brothers.

At ano bang dapat kong isagot? Sure? Go on? It's up to you? Ughhh!

But before I could even answer, he already began singing a song with a strum of a guitar coming from his end. And it wasn't a Filipino song... it was a Spanish seranade song.

Oh, God.

"Ah vien, che i baci che ti vo' dare, le stelle in ciel non le potrian contare, e le carezze ed i sospir tu sola o bella li potrai ridir."

Napapikit ako sa lamig ng kanyang boses... at sa depinisyon ng bawat salitang binibitawan n'ya. It was— amazing.

It was... romantic.

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The song is entitled Lolita, Serenata Spagnola which originates from Spain and means Lolita, Spanish Serenade.

Here is the exact English translation of the song:

Come, the kisses I want to give you,
(like) stars in sky that can't be count,
and the caresses and sighs, (and)
your uniqueness or beauty, can be repeated (so many times).