In a Relationship with Dashed (Completed)

C34: Missed Calls from Dashed.

34: Missed Calls from Dashed

"Huy, Bronwyn! Sandali nga lang!" Teegan grabbed my arm. I looked at her, and she was catching her breath. "Bakit ka ba tumakbo, huh?! Ten minutes na lang before the game starts, oh! Hindi na natin maaabutan ang pag-iintroduce ng mga players!"

I slightly bowed my head and wiped off a few beads of sweat that formed on my forehead. Holding onto my knees, I began to pant. "I-I'm... sorry. But I d-don't want to watch the game anymore, Teegan."

"Huh? Teka, bakit?!" her brows furrowed. "Tapatin mo nga ako! Ano ba kasing nakita mo kanina at ganyan kasama ang timpla ng mukha mo ngayon? Ang lapit na natin sa gym, couz! Ilang kembot na lang 'yun tapos bigla-bigla mong hahatakin ang kamay ko papunta rito para sabihing ayaw mo nang manood?!" she slapped her forehead in frustration. "Mas wasak pa yata ulo mo kaysa sa'kin, e!"

Hindi mo ako naiintindihan, Teegan...

Hindi mo ako naiintindihan dahil hindi mo naman nakita kung ano 'yong nakita ng mga mata ko.

Heavenly Gods. There's the pain, again.

"If you want to watch, it's fine with me..." I said, almost murmuring. "Kakain lang ako sa café tapos balik na akong room para doon na lang magpahinga."

"Seriously?! Ayaw mo talagang magbigay suporta sa boyfriend mo?!" hindi makapaniwalang tanong niya.  I nodded slowly, causing her to roll her eyes. "Ang annoying mo!"

I sighed heavily at her words.

"I'm sorry for dragging you here... Sige na, Teegan. Balik ka na ron." tumalikod na ako sa kanya matapos kong sabihin 'yon.

I just can't take it. Hanggang ngayon ay ramdam na ramdam ko pa rin ang paninikip ng dibdib ko. I want it to stop. But the question is... how?

Napailing ako, tumuloy na sa paglalakad. Para akong nakalutang. Wala sa sarili.

But my senses came back when my phone vibrated. I flipped it up and pressed the home button. When I saw who the text was from, may kung anong bagay na ang nagwala sa may bandang tiyan ko.

Dashed

The game's about to start. Where are you?

Muli akong napakagat-labi... but instead of typing a message to reply to him, I simply returned my cellphone to one of my pockets. I don't want to talk to him... yet. I don't want to confirm my conclusions this quick. We've only been together for two months.

Right. Two months of being in a fake relationship with Dashed.

It's like... it's not enough.

God, Bronywn. You said that harboring doubts about anyone is wrong, right? Then, why are you doing this? Why are you distancing yourself from him? Why are you thinking this way?

At ano bang pakielam mo kung may ibang babae siyang kasama? As if your relationship with him is real. Una pa lang, sinabi naman niya sa'yo na pansamantala lang kayo, diba? And while you're together, he'll be looking for a girl he can present to his family.

There's a possibility... that the girl he was with earlier is already that girl. Kaya please, 'wag kang umarte d'yan na para bang nakagawa siya nang malaking kasalanan sa'yo.

Huminga ako nang maluwag. I have to face it. The facts about our relationship. Walang totoo sa ginagawa ni Dashed. If there's anything, I can count them on my fingers.

Tumingin ako sa dinaraanan ko. Tahimik. Akala ko ako lang yung nandoon... but as soon as I turned the last corner of the corridor towards the cafeteria, a gentle hand pulled me away.