In a Relationship with Dashed (Completed)

C45: Dashed's Sadness.

45: Dashed's Sadness

"Naninibago talaga ako sa'yo, couz..."  Teegan held the tip of my hair, twirling it around and then sniffing it. "Simula nang mag-break kayo ni Dashed, madalang ka na lang kung ngumiti. 'Wag mo naman kasing masyadong dibdibin... maawa ka sa boobs mo, flat-chested ka na nga tapos gumaganyan-ganyan ka pa. Baka naman next time, pati nipple mo mawala na, ah!"

I glared at her. If we weren't in the library right now, kanina ko pa siya nabatukan. "Bahala ka kapag napagalitan ka ng librarian. You're so noisy." I scolded her.

She raised an eyebrow at me and rolled her eyes. I refocused my attention on the book I was reading. Maybe this is the best way for me to distract myself. I've become quite the bookworm to forget about him. All of him.

Thankfully, I'm slowly and finally getting better. I think.

"Dapat kasi imbes na libro inaatupag mo, sarili mo na lang, e. So that at least you know, Dashed will realize even more what he's missing out on!"

"I don't want to change myself for him, Teegan. May girlfriend na siyang iba at masaya na. I don't want to cause trouble anymore," I said in a deep voice. "Why don't you just move on and forget about what happened in our relationship? So that you'll stop thinking about all these things."

Lumabi siya kaya napairap ako. "Sino ba kasi talagang nakipag-break sa inyong dalawa? It's been a week, couz! Pero hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin namin alam kung anong dahilan ng hiwalayan niyo!"

"That reason doesn't matter anymore. Even if I tell you, that won't change the fact that me and Dashed are already over."

Napahalumbaba siya. "Pero alam mo ba? Iyong nakapagtataka ron, kahit girlfriend na niya si Ingrid Monteverde, Dashed's tweets haven't changed. Ikaw pa rin, couz. Lahat ng tungkol sa posts niya, obvious na sa'yo pa rin ang patama."

Tumibok nang mabilis ang puso ko pero mabilis ko ring inignora 'yon.

I stood up from the couch while gathering my scattered belongings from the table. I have to be quick. I have to forget what Teegan just said.

"Let's eat fish croquettes? I'm going to treat you." so you'll shut up.

I wore the strap of my backpack sa isang balikat ko. Siya naman, tamad akong pinasadahan ng tingin.

"Change the topic ang peg?" her eyebrows raised as my eyes rolled.

"Kung ayaw mo, Teegan, bahala ka. hindi naman ako namimilit."

Umalis na ako sa library. Bahala na kung saan ako mapadpad o dalhin ng mga paa ko.

Basta gusto ko nang tahimik.

I'm serious while walking down the hallway. Marami pa ring nakatingin sa akin but I'm too pissed off to even care. Naiirita ako sa sarili ko. Hindi ko kasi alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon, kahit hindi ko na siya nakikita o nakakausap, 'di pa rin mawala-wala itong feelings ko. Why is it so hard to forget?

Why is it so hard to forget him?

And boom.

Dahil sa bilis ng mga hakbang ko, I didn't notice that someone else was also walking towards my direction! We bumped into each other. I fell onto the floor. Nagkalat din ang mga gamit na dala ko. Gosh! I was too preoccupied with my thoughts that I didn't even notice I was already bumping into someone!

Napahimas ako sa natamaang parte ng katawan ko. Damn it. It hurts!

I slowly stood up and quickly gathered my things. But I froze when I realized who I bumped into. My eyes widened in raw shock.

Parang tumigil sandali ang pag-ikot ng mundo.

Oh, my God.

It's him!

This thing called destiny really trying to mess up with me, huh?!

Bakit naman kasi sa lahat ng taong pwedeng bumunggo sakin, siya pa?!

"Are you okay?" he asked in concern as his eyes scanned me from head to toe.

Umamba siyang humakbang papalapit sa'kin pero mabilis kong itinaas ang isang kamay ko.

I stared at him coldly. "Don't come near me. I'm okay." then walked past him after gathering all my things.

But to tell you frankly, I'm not freaking okay. My body hit the hard tiles which made my back scream in bloody pain right now! But hell, of course, I can't show him that.

"Bronywn," I heard him mutter before I could walk away completely. I closed my eyes as my heart raced even more. Ganoon pa rin pala. Tumitibok pa rin ito sa lalaking hindi naman karapat-dapat. Sa lalaking katulad niya. Ni Dashed. "Let me take you to the clinic, please..." aniya nang makita akong paika-ika.

"It's not your duty." I said, pursing my lips.

"I can't let you walk like that." and before I could say anything, I felt myself being lifted up. He carried me into a bridal style. In front of these students.

"Put me down, Dashed," I said in a stern tone. "Let go of me!"

"I'm sorry, Bronywn... but I can't."

And I saw the sadness in his eyes.