Baby Boom || Liam Payne <Complete>

Chapter 14: Welcome To Motherhood

"Up!...... Down!" I yelled as I tried to help Jake swing. We've been at the park for a good hour and a half. He's still not walking but he crawls everywhere. You can't let him out of your sight for a second otherwise he takes off wherever his curiosity leads him. He gets scared when I send him down the slide by himself and he hates other people's dogs. He'll eat sand and loves to sit on the teeter-totter.

I'm slowly starting to notice that every little thing Jakob does is more appreciated by me. It's like I know it won't stay this way for long and I have to enjoy it while it last. Next thing you know he'll be running around grabbing anything he could get his hands on or cuss one of the boys out since he doesn't know better. Eventually, he'll get his first broken arm or leg and I'll be a wreck, stressing if he's gonna die or not. Obviously I'm exaggerating but hey? Isn't that what moms do? I won't know until it actually happens.

I guess what I'm just worried about is me doing something wrong. What if Jakob grows up wrong and starts to disrespects me? I'm the only one he's got, so how would that work out? I've got zero guidance as to what to do with a kid. And it's just that much harder because I don't have a man in my life who's willing to step up to the plate and try to care for Jakob with me, side-by-side.

I don't need a man though. Jakob may since, you know, all that guy shiz but when the time comes, I'll be looking. It's just right now, everyone's in their prime and a kid is only gonna stop them from experiencing the 'wild life'. I'm 19 years old, barely gonna be a 20 year old in a few months. So guys around my age would definitely not want to put up with a kid and a girlfriend. I'm an independant individual that doesn't need anyone to baby me and hold my hand and try to teach me how to raise Jake. I'll learn these things on my own because even with a guy with me, we'd still end up learning together.

We don't need a Batman to come and save us. We've got each other. That's the only thing that matters. I've got a decent job that I get paid a decent amount of money for, a house that is big enough to fit 3 people in, and........... and I have the boys. The boys have helped me through a lot of this. I know that if I hadn't met them, it would've been a million times harder as to getting over all that happened to me. It was a very traumatic event that I wouldn't wish upon anybody.

I'm pulled out of my thoughts when I hear Jakob yawn.

Thank God....

"I think you're tired mister." I said as I stood in front of him with my hands on my hips. A knowing look on my face.

Jake looks up at me and makes baby noises. I laughed and sighed contently. This is my life. This is what I'll be doing for the next chapter in my life.

And I'm perfectly fine with it.

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I locked the front door with a 'click'. I gently set my keys on the little table by the door while still balancing a sleeping Jakob in my left arm. I tip toed through the living room, out into the hallway, and through Jakob's room like a pro. Still sure to make my movements swift....... well at least I think I did.

I carefully took off Jakob's grey and blue sweater and pulled his shoes along with it. I laid him back gently in his crib, but panicked a little when he started creaking his eyes open.

"Sh, sh, sh, sh, sh." I chanted until he slowly closed his eyes again and gripped my left index finger tightly in his right hand. I took my right hand and softly brushed away the little hairs that had fallen onto his forehead. I started to hum a lullaby that had made its way into one of my favorites on my mental music chart.

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine.

You make me happy, when skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear, how much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

When Jakob's hand dropped from my finger, letting me know he was finally asleep, I silently let out a huge puff of air. I kissed his forehead and crept my way to his window. I opened it slightly so that way if he wakes up, he wouldn't have to wake up to darkness.

I closed his door and sighed deeply, again. My legs hurt from walking everywhere. My arms hurt from pushing Jake. My head hurts from the temperature switch from the frost bitten winters outside to the warm heated air of my apartment. I'm exhausted and worn out from all the play time I had with Jake today.

I plopped down on the couch and laid down. I looked up at the clock on the wall in the hallway and read the time. 2:27

Eh.... A half an hour nap won't hurt anybody.

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I know it's not the best chapter.... like at all.... but tomorrows short day for me so there will be a really long chappy Thursday. Plz vote, comment, and follow! Thxs

<3 Angel